My paper heart will bleed

2006-10-31T10:46:00.000+08:00

RELINK. (:

Http://rapidhopeloss-.blogspot.com

The past has gone, its time to say goodbye.

2006-10-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

I SAID "HOPEFULLY" NOT COMPLETELY!

Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.
So much for all the promises you made,
they served you well
&now you're gone
&they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm,
it served you well
&now it's gone &you're wasted on me.

Like Hello?
Im married to my computer,
how do you expect me stay away from it right?

So yeah, here's what I've been up to.

FRIDAY.
- Spag for lunch. (: yum
- Met up with Ariel, Chew &Fionn at Novena.
(PS. I was early &Fionn was the LATEST! (:)
- Pigged out at Kfc.
- Tuition at Lib (Thanks Fionn &Ariel!)
- Slacked at Macs!
- Home smelly home.

Rough Summary: The day sucked, cause like
I wanted to join Fionn &all for the
movie, but I couldnt cause like I
have to study for the darn retest. ):
So yeah. It ruined my mood!

SATURDAY!
- Chinese tuition at 10.30am.
- Watched PrettyCure &Groom my room too.
- Memorised Heart Contents.
- Slept/Napped for 2 &a half hours.
- Ate breakfast, lunch &dinner.
(Apparently, I forgot all about meals)
- Mamaaaaa House for curry feast!
- Jerrold, Janice &all came over.
- Lights out.

Rough Summary: No Marko! I do not watch
PrettyCure on purpose! Somehow its on
whenever I watch KidsCentral!

SUNDAY
- Talked to Godmom regarding Europe trip.
(She feels bad for bringing her 3 other
god daughters &leaving me out.)
- Worship sucked big time.
- Lunched with Renee &all.
- Home smelly home.
- Studied.
- Grace Haven! (:
(I love Eric &Weijun!)
- Dinner with Mom's cell group people.
- Home smelly home.

Rough Summary: They didnt come. Chickens.
Anyways, Church sucks all the time. -_-".
Okay only Salvation Army la. Timmy's
church is alright. &yeah, AuntyCathy
says I might be able work at Grace Haven!
Yeah with ERIC! &WEIJUN! &amp;amp;amp;JEREMY! &GARRY!
&GRACE! &YAO XING!

-FAINTS!

But I thinks its volunteery.
Anyways, I dont quite mind. (:
If I get to see them, I'd be
more than happy! They make me
smileeee. (:

MONDAY!
- Met Justti at TPY!
(PS. I WAS EARLY! :D:D!)
- Bought Macs to school.
- Studied in canteen.
(It was darn noisy!)
- Proceeded to R301!
- Studied bio. :D!
- Talked, talked &talked!
- Chat with MsKuan for abit! (:
- Fionn &I went to town.
- Home smelly home.

YEAH.

Rough summary: I finally got to see Adnan.
(oof ayunni punani. :D:D!)
I almost fell outside Yoshi.
Some idiot tripped me. But I regained my
balance. &THANKGOD! That FleshImp fella
wasnt there! Im abit scared of him after
the previous incident. (Fionn stop laughing,
not funnnny at all.)

Oh yeah! &I saw Brandon! (:

PHONE CONVO:
Brandon: Abby, you're at town right?
Abby: Uh.. NOOOOO!
Brandon: Outside the hotel right?
Abby: Uh.. NOOOO!
Brandon: Uh, Im behind you.
(Abby &Fionn turns around)
Abby: NOOO!

Yeah so like Yow was behind! (:
His shirt was ..funny "Dont copy me"
or smth like that. -_-"

I, ABBY WONG! BOOK BRANDON YOW JIE WEI
FOR A HORROR FILM ONE DAY! :D!

&I also found out that Horoscopes
arent all that bullshitty.
Their quite true, well, maybe to me.

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Things are what they are -- don't waste time trying to change them.

It can be very difficult to accept things as they are there is such a strong feeling deep inside of you that wishes things were different. But things are what they are, and you should not waste any more time trying to make someone else change they way they feel. If you can move past this today, you will feel freer faster. Your independence is of key importance right now, and you are going to want to be unencumbered by emotional dramas. Relish this imperfect situation. It is a gift.

Artist: 3 Doors Down
Song: When I'm Gone

Theres another world inside of me that you may never see,
Theres secrets in this life I cant hide.
Well, somewhere in this darkness, theres a light that I cant find
Well, maybe its to far away, maybe Im just blind
Maybe Im just blind,

Chorus

So hold me when Im here,
Love me when Im wrong,
Hold me when Im scared,
And love me when Im gone.

Everything I am,
And everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
Ill never let you down,
Even if I could,
Give up everything,
If only for your good,

So hold me when Im here,
Love me when Im wrong,
Hold me when Im scared,
You won’t always be there,
So love me when Im gone.
So love me when Im gone

Refrain

When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin,
I wont tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness,
I’m alive but Im alone,
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.

Chorus

So hold me when Im here,
Love me when Im wrong,
Hold me when Im scared,
And love me when Im gone.

Everything I am,
And everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
Ill never let you down,
Even if I could,
Give up everything,
If only for your good,

So hold me when Im here,
Love me when Im wrong,
Hold me when Im scared,
You wont always be there,
So love me when Im gone.

Maybe Im just blind.

RARH RARH RARH.
Im happy, cause I blocked -.
- doesnt deserve anyone actually,
not even her. yeaps.

-nodds.

Bye Smelly People.

IM SUPER ANNOYED NOW CAUSE
I JUST MISSED JUSTICE LEAGUE. ):

2006-10-27T17:49:00.000+08:00

IM SORRY! I JUST HAD TO BLOG!

I love Cheng! (: I love SEANCHENG! (:
-beams!

He sung Story of a Girl by 3 Doors Down
to me. &I melted!

"This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs I absolutely love her
When she smiles

ABBY! PLEASE STOP CRYING!"

-MELTS! (:

ChengyBaby! Im smilingggggggggggg! (:

&I ~~love~~ AYUNNI.

the unsuspecting victim. says:
abby dear!
the unsuspecting victim. says:
i miss you!
& jump the gun on the run says:
eeee
& jump the gun on the run says:
go away!
the unsuspecting victim. says:
i really really miss you
& jump the gun on the run says:
-SPRAYS INSECTICIDE
the unsuspecting victim. says:
haha!
& jump the gun on the run says:
-SPRAYS PESTICIDE!
& jump the gun on the run says:
AHHH
the unsuspecting victim. says:
im serious
& jump the gun on the run says:
WHY NOT WORKING!
the unsuspecting victim. says:
i really miss you!

Hello Punani! I missed you too. (Not)
Okay, Im gna grab my twisties &watch
justice league!

Byebye.

I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER!
I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER! I HATE HER!

2006-10-26T17:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDD! (:

Hello my little china sister. :D!
I didnt forget ogay.

HAPPY TRAINING AYE!

Loves,
Abby the CHINGALA (chinese + bangla)

2006-10-26T17:00:00.000+08:00

If you wait for me then,
Ill come for you
Although I've travelled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me
If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return &fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
Ill find my way back to you
If youll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

This is hopefully my last post until
the 10th of November, after my papers.

Please love me or I'll be gone.
I'll be gone.

Anyhow, there's just this song
that has been ringing over
&over in my head.

Its Valentine, by Martina Mcbride.

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
Id still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
Youre all I need, my love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
Youve opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

Ive dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn’t love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
Youre all I need, my love, my valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
cause all I need is you, my valentine
Youre all I need, my love, my valentine
I do mean everything I say.
&I'll be back with a story.

BleedlikeF.

Shot me down, as I flew by.
Selfish needs, Selfish deeds,
to satisfy yourself, you chose to hurt.

Your former love, she treated you bad.
She multiple-timed you, you didnt mind?
I asked you once, I asked you twice.
If she wanted you back, would you?

As clear as crystal, I remembered
you assured me, singing around my
head were your words &promises.

None were kept, none were fulfilled.

Yeah uh hur, your selfish needs, your selfish deeds.
Spare a thought for the world,
well, at least me, I plead.

Does she love you like I do?
Does she know you like I do?
Does she keep everything you give her?
Does she treat you like you're special?

Im so stressed &tired, I could just do
a titanic stunt by the window now.

Goodbye world.

Cause you let the 24th fly by
without a care nor a damn.

ITS ME, MY FAULT, MY PROBLEM.

2006-10-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

I wonder where your heart is
cause it sure don't feel like it's here
Sometimes I think you wish
that I would just disappear
Have I got it all wrong
Have you felt this way long
Are you already gone

Do you feel lonely
when you're here by my side
Does the sound of freedom
echoe in your mind
Do you wish you were by yourself
or that I was someone else,
anyone else

RARR ):
So like those above are the photos
from Monday, I've been almost too
lazy to upload them.

You're making me fall down,
I'm fallin' down again
I wish you could fall down,
Can you catch me darling?

Anyway, please pay careful attention to
Picture number3! My Darling sister, Cel,
has this, super major crush on him. (:

HE'S ELLEN'S BROTHER!
HE'S JANICE &JOYLENE'S COUSIN!
&HE'S BENJAMIN!
yadddddddddda!

Well, I just think its so sweet!
He's like the first guy Cel likes!

I almost suspected she lesbonic or smth!

Picture 4, yeaaah thats my sexy sister man!

TODAY! Was late for school! Hardy haha!
I had to runnnnnn in. Yeap, I ran okay!

Contact time was borrrrring! ):
Hey, I might not retain afterall,
gna retake my sciences (physics/bio)
&cheena chinese!

PS. I PASSED MY BIO OGAY!

Had this stupid Fire drill TWICE!. -_-"
SO -_-" OGAY!

Poor sec3s! We had to run all the
way from the 4th level to the 1st
TWICE today. Just cause of that
stupid fire drill.

Exhausting can?

&next, we had to climb all the
way up to the Dance Studio,
6 Floors up is no kidding ogay.

Especially when you walked up &down
like Four times today. -_-"

I'd rather like .. RUN 2.4km.

Had an early recess, Food Fair, oh shucks,
the food sucks please. Arghs!

So we headed back up to class
&did some of this ...

Those who thinks Veronigga is an Ahlian,
please raise your hand &say "Aye!"
HAHAHAHAH! Eh nigga, seriously laaaah
your freakin' hair tells me you're
a freakin' lian! So stop living in
self denial! (: -beams

Oh nehneh, she's so gna kill
me for saying that. HAHAHAHH!

Left to right: Jasmine, Abby, Sara, Veronigga &NicoleBen.

Left to right: Abby, Niggalette!, Veronigga &NicoleBen.

Yeah &then, we had the Shoebox thingy right!
mmhm, Jo teo scolded like sooo many people
cause they didnt bring boxes &presents
for the orphans.

HEY I BROUGHT!
nehnannypoopooo!!

Anyways, Nina group bought a
Patrick Star for the kiddo. ):
WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!
(Picture below!)

I was sooooooo tempted to take
it &put it in my bag! HAHAHA!

&I dont know which idiot had to
rubb it in by saying that she has
the bigggggg one at home.

ARGHS!

Mmmhm, then we got bored.
&Yes, thats how we sit. (:
So cool zai nehzx!

Chew's like "Touch no evil",
so she's covering her boobies.
HAHAHA! Ariel, the sick minded
one came out with that. So lame.

&Then, Ariel went to sleep
when I left to go talk to Diana,
Nina &all. mmhmm.

Sam's so gaaaaaaay! (:
She was like listening to her Mp3
&at the same time listening
to our convo.

So like halfway she'll turn around
&say "WHO!"

mhmm! Told Diana some things!
It has been pretty long since
we've talked about "those" kind
of things! (Actually, bitching)

Yeah, so after school, Chew, Fionn, Ariel &I
decided to go down town &amp;we ate at Pepper Lunch!
Oh Yumyum! (:

WE TALKED! &TALKED! &TALKED!

&There's Ariel posing for the camera!
HAHA! (: &below is a photo of the
corn I removed from the rice.

EW. I hate corn.

Mmhmm, so ogay.

What can I say?
I love my friends. (:

Artist: Martina Mcbride
Song: A Broken Wing

She loved him like he was
The last man on Earth
Gave him everything she ever had
He'd break her spirit down
Then come lovin' up on her
Give a little then take it back

She'd tell him about her dreams
He'd just shoot 'em down
Lord he loved to make her cry
You're crazy for believin'
You'll ever leave the ground
He said Only angels know how to fly

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye on the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you ought to see her fly

One Sunday morning
She didn't go to church
He wondered why she didn't leave
He went up to the bedroom
Found a note by the window
With the curtains blowin' in the breeze

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye on the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you ought to see her fly

With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you ought to see her fly

BleedlikeF. ):

Byes.

Brokened; Hey you didnt have to do such a thing to me, I didnt deserve it. Why make me go through all this bull? I owe you no shit. I dont. Sigh. I dont think you have an answer for that either, just admit, you're one hell of a selfish person. You only care about yourself. Its all about you.

2006-10-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

If you want me to wait,
I would wait for you.
If you tell me to stay,
I would stay right through.
If you dont want to say anything at all,
I'm happy wondering.

If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here, I'll be waiting.

Cause you know, nothings gna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

&you're sure that, nothings gna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
Though world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gna change my love for you

I feel Cheated.

Tell me, why did you have to lie.
Make me fall, fall right through.
Made me go through so much pain.

EH TELL ME WHY LAH.

If I could swear, I would sworn right through.
But I made a promise, &thats not to swear.
If I could slash, I would have slashed right through.
But I made a promise, &thats not to selfinflict.

Funny aye, I kept my promises through
up &downs, but you just gave up.

All for her? All for "ME<3"?

Im not ready for another,
not another mess, no, Im not ready.

2006-10-23T20:45:00.001+08:00

&you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

GOOD O' SONGS AYE! (:
-Beams!

Some say the kind of Music you
listen describes the kind of
person you are.

Goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye doesn't mean
we'll never be together again
Though we may be so far apart you still
will have my heart
So forget your past my Goodbye Girl
'Cause now you're home at last.
-David Gates (Goodbye Girl)

&I feel like CRAP. ):

rar! where are you?
I need you to pull me out of
this fit. &get me standing back
on my feet.

Oh Daryl, Im so tired &confused.

2006-10-23T15:03:00.000+08:00

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesnt care how fast you fall
And you cant refuse the call
See youve got no say at all

Blogger's being super off right now.):
I still have like five other photos to load
but it refuses to appear! ):

&NO! Dont tell me to use Photobucket.
I suck at codings. -_-"

Ogay, meant to post up yesterday photos.
Mainly those taken with Celeste.

Dinner was with Uncle Peter &Family,
Uncle RichardChai &Family. Mmhmm!

Jerrold was super adorable!
ITS SO FUN BULLYING HIM (:
CHARSIEW!

My shattered dreams and broken heart
are mending on the shelf

I COULDNT SLEEP LAST NIGHT!
Cause Celeste told me ghost stories
&then I kept imagining there was
something sitting on top of
the cupboard. lala. ):

So I made her stay in my room
&watch tele until I sleep.

But even so I kept waking up
at odd hours cause I was scared. -_-"

Refused to wake up for school,
but Daddy forced me too. ):
But school was great!

We had the Oh-so-lame Firedrill
talk thing, like WHALAO! Its like
a "repeat telecast" thing. -_-"

&Then we headed to the Dance Studio
to meet our Social Etiquette trainers!

I was being soooooooooooooo sian.
I started singing Teen Titan's theme song.
HAHAHAH! &Dont-know-who was singing
along with me.

Boredom is evil. It does weird
things to innocent ANGELIC! victims like me!

Our trainer rocks lah! (:
AJAY! Yeah, if you just got to know
him, you'd think he's snobby &all.
But he really isnt!

We started by doing puzzles! &then
writing some gay story! mmhm! Like
you can write anything you want! :D!

So I wrote! &it got really out of point.
Cause like suddenly, there were extra
characters like 2CharSiew Paus, Superman,
Wonderwoman, Teen Titans &even the
Powerpuff girls! (:

MMHMM, Super out of point!

&then Jade &all suggested Macs delivery! (:
YAY! So took our orders &all.

&then we were given different topics
regarding Etiquette! Oh-so-funnnnn!

Ate sweets &lollies! (:

MACS CAME! HOHO! -DROOLS!
&guess what?

AJAY PAID! (:
Love that man, I swear!
He's totally cool, he _____!
So we're all like ... the same Lingo
or something!

Yeah, so here's the bunch of photos
I managed to upload. (:

Chew! Seriously! Stop getting fresh with ME!
No kisses for you Ogay!

Danielle &Kinny has got mental illness!
Both as skinny as broomsticks yet
claiming their muscular!
-BULLSHIT!

Hallucinations. Tsk!

Danielle is like SO SHORT!
HOPELESS! (:

&franky ALWAYS poses for the camera! (:

Yeap! &thats AJAY! for you guys!
HE'S THE BEST TRAINER.

Too bad the other classes got all
the loupok ones! Nehnannypoopoo! (:

&A SHOCKER! 27 out of 38 didnt come!
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
Come on, Three-five rocks aye!

Artist: Brian Mcknight
Song: I Miss You

I can't remember why we fell apart,
from something that was so meant to be.
Forever was the promise in our hearts.
Now more and more I wonder where you are.

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
I miss you.

Still have your picture in a frame,
hear your footsteps down the hall.
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane.
How I wish that you were the same.

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you.

Lonelyness and heartache.
Crying myself to sleep.
Wondering 'bout tomorrow,
won't you come back to me,
come back to me.

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
I miss you.

To tell the truth you know, I have been hurting all along.

Im gna sleep. Bye.

2006-10-22T14:51:00.000+08:00

So take your empty words,
Your broken promises.
And all the time you stole,
Cause I am done with this.
I could give it away, give it away,
I'm doing everything I should've.
And now I'm making a change,
I'm living the day.
I'm giving back what you gave me.
I don't need anything.

Its a boring-not-as-hazy-as-saturday, SUNDAY!
Honestly, I dread Sundays.

Ohwells, was dragged out of bed
&into the cold shower. whaseh!

Church was SO boring. -_-"
Yeah, Salvation Army again. ):
I would have gone to Timmy's church,
but Mom &Dad would be against it.

I dont understand.
Which is more important?

All of us going to Salvation Army,
as a Family &sticking out like Faithless
prick, sleeping during sermons,
muttering swearwords &cursing
under my breath. &to add on,
being a Loner.

Or Me, going to church Alone,
but having never ending Faith in God,
paying attention during sermon
&have tonnes of friends?

I'd go for OptionB, if I was wise.
Apparently, they arent.

Anyways, Lunch was such a bore.
The kids there are almost too
young for me to hold a conversation
with &the adults are too old
that they bore the pang out of me.

So I used a bus home. (:
Saw Cheng, Yunzhi, Gina &gang at
Macs! (: Thanks for the PowerHug
Gina! :D:D!

AM SO BORED! &So I played with
Inverting colours into Negative print!
HAHAHAH! (:

Oh yes! Have you all heard the Song,
Hey Jude! Sung by The Beatles?

Its really niceeee! (:
Sun Yan Zi sung it too in one
of her many albums. mmhm! (:

Here's the Link to it in Youtube!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Heuura1Xo2U
That fella's eyes are .. Soothing!

Take a sad song &make it better.

Depression sinking in.
No, this can't be a mental disorder.

MrMurderer, you said if I slashed my
wrists, I might die. &That if I die,
you'd be the Murderer cause You
know you're the one who brought
this upon me.

But if that would grasp a hold
of your attention. I'd do it,
I'd do anything.

Cause there's smth in the way
you look at me.

Sit back &Enjoy.

Artist: Good Charlotte
Song: Say Anything

Here I am on the phone again
&awkward silence is on the other end

I used to know the sound of a smile
in your voice, but right now
all I feel is the pain of the fighting
starting up again

All the things we talk about
you know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
all the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time
(after time, after time)

Don't say a word,I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes
Best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that no not for you
If you just stay with me
We can make it through

So here we are again, same old arguement
And now I'm wondering
If things'll ever change, yeah

When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We made noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign,Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down
I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down
Down, down, down

(Please) Don't say a word
I know you feel the same (don't leave)
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
(Please) Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay (don't leave)
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

So amazingly freakish.
Its true I suppose, look, we used to
talk for so long about cheerful things. (:
It was laughter after laughter.

We learnt more &more about each other.

But now, or maybe, after the breakup,
all the conversations we had were
piled with tears after tears.

The same old arguement.

Every now &then, I get flashbacks.
Yes, at first, I was a little embarrass
to admit, cause people think its a mental
disorder. But I say to hell with it.

These flashbacks occurs at least twice
a week, I'd end up in a horrible breakdown,
but does anyone know? is anyone listening?

When I tell people, all they do is accuse
me of hanging on or "living in the past"

"I dont break promises"
You told me that remember?
"I dont say No to people"
You said that yourself too.

But all the promises made
were left unkept.

&The lastlast time you called me,
you said "Okay, talk to you soon"

That soon never came. It never came.

Until you made that call that day.
When you rang me up to remove
a particular something. My heart
practically shattered. I felt so
crushed. I felt as if I didnt know
you anymore &that you're just
pushing me closer &closer
out the door.

Oh, so you failed everything?

WHAT KIND OF PANGSAI ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
&you dare to say you failed?

HELLO? IM THE ONE WHO AS SUFFERED.
IM THE ONE WHO IS ABOUT TO RETAIN.

I dont know you anymore, whatever happened to my
sunshine? whatever happened?
Yeah, the fella who was there,
standing by me. Yes, that guy
who dried each &every tear I cried.

I hate you, but I love you.

I love AbigailTan. (:
You're my sugarplums!

I guess Abigails know each other best!
We're TheABIGAILS! :D:D!

Sorry for being so emotional.
I've just kept this inside for so long.
I had to come out one way or another.

Byes.

2006-10-21T16:25:00.000+08:00

If I had castles built on high
I'd find a million ways
to write your name
Against the sky
Just to let you know,
you've caught my eye
&if I had more than wealth could buy
I'd sell it all and start again
for just a chance to be with you

Its a boring-hazey saturday!
but hey, I think Im getting used
to waking up & see the condos
or buildings around the area.

Just an sketch or an outline of
them, like Mings said, "Feels
like we're in genting"

haha! (:

Youre my sunshine after the rain.

Anyways, the Art Gallery was fun.
Franky, Seiriol, Kinny!, Vanessa Poon,
Chew, Xiu, Natasha &MY CLOUD! (Huiyun!)
&yadda yadda bam bam were there! (:

The video made reflecting the Japan
Trip was hilarious! Bel, Franky
&all were in the video! :D:D!

The ending was horribly interesting!
Applying cream aye?

Talked to MrTan! (OM!)
He's sooo cute please!
&then he "introduced" me to
Mrs Lee's husband.

"This is Mrs Lee's husband"

I heard wrongly &said
"HURR! THATS YOUR HUSBAND!"

Super funny lah he!

Bumped into Zhanglao &daughter!
She probably spent the whole night
in the art gallery looking for
my piece of work. (when
it isnt even there!)

I lied. x)!
I told her that its a must to
look at mine! hahah!

Told MsLow to cheer up!
¬ be so pmsive! cause it
scars me! (:

Glad she's feeling much much
better! I bet she was super stressed
over the whole Opening of the art
gallery thingy! (:

Waited for Franky at the canteen! :DD!

&next you know! she changed out of her uniform,
into heels! &supershort skirt! &all!
WHAAAAAAA! Extreme makeover aye!

-DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLS!

On the way to the Interchange!
There were two little kittens!
SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE! -faints.

One looked exactly like BabyJ.
ANDRE! I FOUND A BABYJ. LOOKALIKE!

&the other .. looked normal.

TOOKED A PHOTO OF IT! (BELOW!)
WHASEH! Possessed! Hhahahaha!

SCARY!

FRANKY is soooo FUNKY!
Look at her toenails!
So free aye?

-Looks at mine.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!
What a joke!
Mine looks ... Oh nevermind!

&Anyways! Chew went off
at Novena, Franky went off
at Somerset! (:

Fionn &I used a train down to
City Hall &walked to Gluttons Place
(or smth!, the one next to DXO)

Had SATAY there! &I had uhmm.
WHITE CARROT CAKE! Yummos!

Fionn was such a bully! She ate
so little! &made me finish the remaining
SIX satays. ): EVIL!

&then we headed to the washroom!
On the way, spotted THE STRIPE GANG!
I wna go join their gang leh!
So cool horrr!! Everyone wearing
stripes. -_-" haha! (:

WELL! So that was all the fun we had!
Mom was calling me &asking me to get
home cause Rusty was alone.

OH! SO NOW! THE DOG IS MORE IMPORTANT
THAN I AM LAH! (:
HAHAHAHA!

Anyhow, went online &sent fionn the
photos! Im soooo tired of sending
people photos! hahah!

NICOLEN! I WANT THE DANCE PHOTOS!

&Im also tired to waiting for people
to send over photos!

DARYL LEE!

Beer clip below as well as talking to my daughter, Audrey. My other daugter is missing today. Probably busy with SOMEONE. See, pangseh daddy already. Hahaha.

I DIDNT PANGSEH YOU OKAY!
I was BUSY the whole day!

Besides you say you'd call back!
You nehneh! Fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Go talk to your China Daughter lah!
Im glad the BigNose worked for you.

Told you it'd attract XXX kind of people!
hahah! (:

Artist: Mariah Carey
Song: I Still Believe

No no
Yeah yeah

You look in my eyes
&I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy but
You still can touch my heart
And after all this time
Youd think that I
Wouldnt feel the same
But time melts into nothing
¬hings changed

I still believe, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life
Im filled with all the joy
I could find
You know that I am not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope left in my grasp
Ill hold it with both hands
Its worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance
No, no, no, no, no, no I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together

If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again

I still believe, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
Oh baby, yeah yeah
I had a dream, you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
(I still believe)
Oh baby I do
(Someday you and me)
Just give me one more time
&love again

I had a dream, someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

Oh beautiful song. (:
Boy your love's so good
I don't wanna let go.

BYE!
PEACE BE WITH YOU.

2006-10-20T16:51:00.000+08:00

Ill be the air that you breathe
Ill give the strength that you need
Ill be the light in your eyes
When hope becomes hard to see
Ill be your shining star
To guide you wherever you are
And I promise that Ill be by your side
Always you and I

Someone just put a bullet to my head.
I dont why nor how, but Im feeling down.
Back to square1. ):

_____!, Im sorry for venting my "anger"
on you last night, when it was actually
my fault for being impatient. ):
Sorry. <3s!>

I actually blogged like a whole lot here
regarding Schizophrenia &our guest speaker
Mr Raymond Anthony Fernando &the story of his
wife suffering from Schizophrenia.
&his Love for her, but blogger
deleted it off. Blame blogger!

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AHHHH! So cute righttttttttt?
http://www.usabride.com/wedplan/a_vows.html

Im like ... bored! So researching on
wedding goodies are so ... INTERESTING!

&Then, the time I wasnt-looking forward to.
Dance Comp. AHHHHH! Its so .. Stupid!

I had to dress as a guy!
YEAAAH! "IM THE MAN!"

So Mings &I just threw a top
over our blouse &wore ...
VERY EMBARRASSING track pants!

Borrowed top from Sam.
Borrowed pants from Chew.

THANKS! :D!

Dels was super adorable!
&One thing we all have in common?
WE LAUGH EXTREMELY LOUDDDDDD! (:

Oh yes! PHOTOS! I didnt bring
my camera. ):, but took TWO
photos using NicoleN's camera.

So! Go bugg her to upload it! (:

Fionn &I headed to the dental
to collect the Numberrrrrrrr!

&then we went Yoshinoya at Town! :D!
TALKED TALKED TALKED TALKED!

&Then, walked around. mmhm, FleshImp
is still having sales! ahhhhhhhh!
I wna buy something! But .. No money. -_-"

Left for Novena &waited for Cheng.
&then we talked home together!
We sung "Little froggy!" hahaha!

Oh BIGAILDARLING! (:
Sorry! I cant make it for cell.
(actually, even if I could, I
wouldnt wna go.) I have some
open art gallery at school
to attend. :D:D!

&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;Tonight! Dental appointment!
&then to meet Fionn. (:

IM OH SO SLEEPY! ):

Message for Ayuthepu:
You dweeb! You &Adnan! How could
you possibly hide such a joyful
thing from me! Yes, I know
you were considering my feelings,
but HEY! We're buddies! I cant
possibly be jealous over such a
matter right?

Anyhow! Yes, it would be weird
to be the only singleton in
the clique but I'll adjust
to it. (:!

FARAH &SKINNYPIG.
IDAYU &amp;amp;KAY!
AYUNNI &ADNAN!
&the list goes on!

But hey! Life MUST go on! (:

I love you (Not!) &I wish you
neverending happiness! (:

Looks like I have to find someone
else to send me home everyday
from school since you Pangseh-ed me! (:

RARH! :D:D!

Artist: Christina Aguilera
Song: Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

STOMPS! YOU DIDNT HAVE TO MAKE ME
FEEL LIKE CRAP.

Peace be with you.

2006-10-19T18:44:00.000+08:00

'Cause I want someone to share my smile
To share the pain
To be there when the sea turns gray
To share the joy, for better or worse
And I thought that it might have been him
I thought that it might have been him

Wonder if he knows
The way I saw his soul
Light up my life, wonder if he knows
of the pain I feel tonight

I AM SLEEPY. &I NEED SLEEP NOW!
Stayed up til like ... 1plus previously
cause of ARIEL ASHLEY TAN.

Had to send her the video which
was taking AGES! &EONS! &CENTURIES!
Oh Poo, Im super sleepy now.

Belnice made my morning though! (:
She made us each a mask with our
names written on it!

How adorable aye?

Contact time was spent in the General Office!
Fionn, Sam, Fart, Frenchfry, Chew &I
had to call our Moms &Dads for MrJiow!
Cause we forgot or rather, DIDNT bring
our consent forms for the heritage tour.

HAHAHA! Funny! Mommy thought MrJiow
wanted to complain about me or smth,
like hello? Im the LEAST naughty one ogay!

Yeah like so here's afew photos! (:
There's like about 10more, but Im
lazy &blogger here, is being annoying
&giving me problems!

Our tourguide was Michael (Nice fella!),
The bus we took was .... WHA! :D!
Like those you take to genting or smth!

Two little girls (Bus driver's daughters!)
tagged along with us! The younger is
so so so super adorable! NEHS! She's MINE!
I wna wna wna bring her home!

Ive learnt a valuable lesson today.
Yeap, its, Never to laugh when
your photo is being taken, or you'll
end up looking like a fool.
(Refer to the second photo)

We went to an Armenian (spellcheck!) church!
It was beautiful! The statues, the (empty)
tombstones. The building itself!

All that its lacking is AIRCON! :D!
We sat in the Chapel &had a little
bit of a History lesson there, regarding
the race, culture &Christianity (:

We then headed to the Mosque,
a pretty short trip there though!

&some other restaurant/museum place!
regarding the Muslim cultures. :D!

Lunched at Kallang Macs. :D:D!

&then headed to a Sikh (Spellcheck) temple.
Fionn &I didnt go in cause like ...
we didnt bring scarfs. (&please, I wont
wear a scarf even if you point a knife
at me) &we didnt wna borrow as well.

Borrowing scarfs? Sounds abit gross aye?
You never know how many hundreds of people
borrowed &all their perspiration &sweat
soaked in the scarfs. Boy, it must be
stinky.

I'd rather roll in dust bunnies than
to share sweat with strangers.
YES! ESPECIALLY STRANGERS!

We indulged in phototaking while
taking 10000000000years for everyone
else. Yeap, they took super long!

We were short on time so Michael suggested
with give the Buddhist temple a miss.
Which was kind of sad cause from what
he said, the temple is really huge
&has like dont-know-how-many sections!

&to add on, legends! &myths! &folklore!
Aw man, I cant believe we missed
out on those bits!

Anyhow, we went sent back to school.
&right after, we had dance. Okay, so like
loads of people aint coming tomorrow. ):

I dont wna go either, but seeing
the effort Diana, Nina, Sam, Setia
¬ fogetting CD-BURNER Kinny! (:
has put in, I feel a tinge pinch of
guilt if I were to skip tomorrow.

However, dancing .. is so Not my thing.
So Im torn between two decisions.
OH SOMEONE! Please come &replace my
place as Xiu's partner.

I dont feel quite good embarrassing
myself infront of the whole level.

Blacked out my face. (:

Had tonnes of fun with Kinny before dance started!
Funny photos we tooked! :D:D!

&Yes, I love the locker! Its like ..
my second home! hoho! :D:D!

Better take more photos IN it before
I get too fat (like a hippo) &wouldnt
be able to fit in anymore!

Was feeling too well, so lied
on the chairs &fell asleep for a
good twenty minutes.

Shiok-a-neh! But now my back aches
cause the CHAIRS were uncomfortable.
Tsk, should have stuck with the tables!

Walked out with Fionn &Chew!
Then Chew left, Fionn &I went
to the Library to find Granddad,
passed him the shoes &all. (:

Headed up to Fork &Spoon for
CHICKEN RICE! YUMYUMYUMYUMYUMYUM!
I loveeeeeee roasted chicken rice.

(explains why Im severely over weight!)

Bought a breast cancer pin. (gosh, its
so ... ugly!) but well, Jill! (is that
your name?) Thank me! (:

Used a bus home &HERE I AM!

A message for FionnChuah!:
Hello Fionn Hunny Wunny Bunny! (:, I understand
you're going through a tough period, but rest
assured alrighty! You'll always have me,
even though I may not be there 24/7 for you
but Im sure DaddyGod is looking out for you.

Wells, in each piece of bullshit life throws
at you, (I've learn it the hard way),
no matter how hard it is to understand,
take it as a lesson learnt &earned! :D!

&Trust me when I say, behind each dark cloud
is a silver lining! &after every storm there's
a beautiful rainbow awating. :D!

Significantly implying that, even
though you think all Life gives you
is just pure Bullshit, its not true,
cause after the Bullshit is thrown,
you gain little more knowledge! (:

Like in this case, you learn that
trust has to be gained ¬ provoked.
&that true friends stick to you,
not make use of you.

Hey maybe in this friendship of
ours, there wouldnt be a
"master &slave" theory! (:

We'll both be Masters!

I love you. &do take care!

Artist: Jack Wagner
Song: Nothings Gna Change My Love For You

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever.. oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you
If you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
he world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

RARH RARH! I feel like biting you!

Peace be with you!

2006-10-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

I thought love was only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else but not for me
Love was out to get to me
That's the way it seems
Disappointment haunted
All my dreams

&then I saw his face &now Im a believer
Not a trace, of doubt in my mind
Im in love,Im a believer
I couldn't leave him
If I tried

Im sleepy! ): School was depressing.
I passed Bio &Geog anyways.
With the help of my DaddyKing. (:
I can do all things through
Christ who strengthens me.

But Im still afraid I might retain.
Nehneh, I cried. ):

Thanks Idayu! Naz! Fionn! &all who
cared &showered hugs &kisses! :D:D!

I love you all oh so much!

Anyways! Look! Hhahaa!
I guess you can so-obviously guess
which one is Mine &Which is Fionn's!

&then our class used a bus with MrJason Ng &Ms Ho
to Tanglin Camp! (It was an Army camp once!,
&yes, it still does send chills down my spine!)
Its super spooky looking!

The Biennale (: (spellcheck!) was fun,
despite the humid weather that nearly
killed me. Hoho! :D:D!

I took loads of Badges! For Celeste!
Cause she likes collecting
all these barang barangs!

&There were those ugly figures!
Haha, their funny, cause they look
like some tribal kind of wooden statues!

HILARIOUS! (:

Oh &Below! Its the what-we-call "Dark room!"
Instructions were, to enter the
room (which is PITCH BLACK!) &close
the door, allow your eyes 30sec to
adjust &then you'll be able to see
images.

HAHAHAHAHA!
&Turns out, out of the FOUR of us
(Ariel, Fionn, Chew &I!)only Fionn
could SEE &HEAR the images &sounds!

Fionn: Oh there! I see a bird flying!
3 of us: WHAT BIRD! WHERE! WHERE!
Fionn: There! There!
Ariel: Which screen! which screen!
Fionn: Oh I hear horses galloping!
3 of us: WHERE! WHERE! WHAT HORSE!

-_-" Fionn has supersonic vision&hearing!
HHAHAHAHAHA!

Below! Haha, that room was disgusting!
There was like a vid of this guy
groaning, moaning &talking.

&his actions mmhmm .. uh..
showed that he was like ..
having sex or smth!

HAHAHAHA! Four of us (above!)
we stared at the screen, stunned. -_-"
DAMN LAME! &there's like a runway leading
to the room, so there were mannequins!
super scary looking please!

THERE'S A CHOPPED UP MERLION INSIDE
TOO! SO MEAN RIGHT! ):
I THINK MERLIONS ARE ... FUGLY
BUT CUTE IN A WAY!

&yes! The flower frenzy! We got
bored &started messing around
with the flowers.

&There's SexyAriel showing
off her goodies! HAHAHAHAH!

&In the second photo, Im like
introducing my pimple to the world!
HAHAHA! I made Kinny, uh.. Ariel ..
Iffah!&dont-know-who say "goodmorning"
to my pimple this morning before
assembly. MHMM! (:

&THATS ME &CHEW! We were fighting
with the flowers as our swords! (:

&I was singing "Everybody was kung fu fightin
Those kids were fast as lightin
In fact it was a little bit frightin
But they fought with expert timin

There were funky china men
From funky china town
They were choping them up
They were choping them down
It's an ancient chinese art
And everybody knew their part
From a faintin' to a snif
And a kicking from the hip

Everybody was kung fu fightin
Those kids were fast as lightin
In fact it was a little bit frightin
But they fought with expert timin'"

HAHAHA! China men are funky!
Zhang lao is ... uh.. not so funky
cause she didnt wna pass me!

Yeah! Like .. thats about it lah!
We ended up slacking in the Cafe!
&Enjoying the aircon!

Bless the man who invented the Aircon!
I love him to death! :D:D!

Went to Kfc for lunch with Fionn! :D!
&then went straight home!

Sent the art photos to MsLow!
Thanks Olivia (:! You rock!
I love you!

Artist: Stevens Shakin
Song: Because I Love You

If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you,
if I crossed a million oceans just to be with you,
Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight,
if I said that I would love you every single night,
Would you ever let me down?

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds sad,
it's just that I'm worried,
so worried that you'll let me down.

Because I love you, love you, love you, so don't let me down.

If I swam the longest river just to call your name,
if I said the way I feel for you would never change,
Would you ever fool around?
Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds bad, it's just that I'm worried,
I'm so worried that you'll let me down.

Because I(love you, love you), love you, love you.

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinds bad, it's just that I'm worried,
Yes, I'm so worried that you'll let me down.

Because I love you, love you,

Oooh, I love you, love you, love you

THATS ALL! TATA!

PEACE BE WITH YOU.

2006-10-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I MISS THE ZOO! (:
I WNA WNA WNA WNA GO AGAIN!
HOOHOO! (:

Took a "nap"! Shiok-a-neh!

Yeah anyway Yes, Im still in an awful mood.
Talked to Daryl yesterday!
It was soooo funnnnnnn! (:

Watched Americas' Next Top Model.
I LIKE JOANIE! SHE'S SO PRETTY!
-jumps up &down!

Nnenna should just get out
the next round.
-BULLSEYE!

ANYWAYS! You're about to visit THREE
very lazy dingdongs! (:

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

EXHIBIT A.

EXHIBIT B.

EXHIBIT C.

&YEAAAAH WE ROCK! DONT WE!
We're sleepyheads! :D:D:D:D!

Anyhow, todays' a boring day.
Its not gna be as fun as planned.

SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH.
&POP GOES A WRINKLE! ):

I hate this "Oh cause you're the
elder sister, you are responsible
for this this this this" ):

WHA. In that case hor, I resign nehs!
WO BU GAN LE! (ooh cheena!)

ANNOYING JEROME IS MY PROFESSION.

& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
RED CROSS AH?
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
Eh jerome, I also from red cross sia
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
hhahaha

YAHYAH WHATEVER ABBY!
GNA MAKE MY EZ LINK TODAY.

Artist: Bryan Adams
Song: I Will Be Right Here Waiting For You

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say forever

(chorus)
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all The times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby,
You've got me going crazy

(chorus)

I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance

Oh you can't see it baby
You've got me going crazy

(chorus)

BYEBYE.

PEACE BE WITH YOU.

WHALAO JEROME CALEB ONG ZHONG WEI!
How dare you two time me hurr!
Never consider my feelings neh!

FINE! GO TO THAT BLOODY AYUNNI LA HUR!
SEND HER MUSHY SMSES LA HUR!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHH!

JEROMEEEEE ):

{N353} ~www.whatisthis-.blogspot.com~ VIVOCITY says:
she wanted me
{N353} ~www.whatisthis-.blogspot.com~ VIVOCITY says:
so i give her one more chance
{N353} ~www.whatisthis-.blogspot.com~ VIVOCITY says:
haha

STILL CAN LAUGH AHHHHHHH!
My heart BROKE! nehs!
&You still can laugh!

(Okay, cannot tahan already, must start
laughing)

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh I love Calebong! (:

ABBY HATES AYUTHEPU!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
Yeah she's just behind. -_-"

2006-10-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

&On the way down
I saw you
&you saved me
From myself
&I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you

Hola people! ):
&Look Daryl! I found the Nose thingy!
Its to blast out bacteria! Huhuh!

MAHJONG IS DRIVING ME UPSIDE DOWN.):
Yes yes, Mommy, Daddy &Gang had
their Mahjong Mararthon.

If I hear another tile knock,
I think I'd go crazy &throw
the whole set away!

Anyway! Looked down yesterday while
opening the main gate for Uncle Peter.
&Look! What an adorable car!

Celeste left an unpleasant note to
the driver cause it was parked in
Mama's parking lot! (:

Jerrold was ............ WEIRD!
Hhahaa, he finished like Half
a packet of MY gummies! hoho!

&I made him pose for the photo!

&Below, yeah H.I.J! What the yadda
is H.I.J? He was questioning
me about it. -_-"

LIKE! HOW WOULD I KNOW!
Maybe printing error or smth.
Or maybe My school is budgeting,
so the PE shirts only read "H.I.J"
without the C.

School sucked. ): Im feeling depressed.):
I feel like ....... crying.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Bet Mommy is really disappointed
in me. ): But I really did slog
my guts out studying.

Come on, you know I did.
Im so scared I might retain.
How now brown cow?

MrLim. ): ): ): ):
He says I wont, cause like ..
yeaaah Im pissed . whatever!

Lunched with Fionn, tried to cheer
up, &managed to, for awhile.
Until I called Mom to tell her about
my results, &she "lectured" me for
being all cool about it?

Hello? Im not being cool about it.
Im upset. You dont know how I feel
at all. Its as if I studied &studied
but nothing went in.

I feel Stupid okay.

Dont rub it in again. ):

Yeah. Thanks Fionn for cheering me up. (:
&Thanks ____ for assuring me.
&Also to MrLimlim. (: &Daryl.

I NEED A HUG. ):

My eye bags are ...... HUGE!
I need to get some sleep now &fast.
Hurr. Looks like I wont be seeing ____
online later. ):

WHATS WRONG WITH TODAY?
EVERYONE HAS A PROBLEM WITH TODAY?
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH.

Slapped myself 10++ times for swearing today.
&Yes, Im sticking to my promise.

Artist: Kelly Clarkson
Song: Low

Everybody's talking
But they don't say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don't want the sympathy
It's cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
Why'd you have to go and make a mess like that

I just have to say
Before I let go

Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
'Cause what you did was low

No, I don't need your number
There's nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be safe

My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go

Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
'Cause what you did was low

What you did was low
What you did was low
What you did was low

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go without precautions
We both know that you can't say that
Just to show
For all the time I loved you so
So

Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
'Cause what you did was low

Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
'Cause what you did was low

Im upset. ): &Disappointed.

Byebye.

Peace be with you.

2006-10-15T13:55:00.000+08:00

If I fell in love with you
would you promise to be true
&help me understand
'Cause I've been in love before
&I've found that love is more than just holding hands

WELLS, the day didnt start off good.
Had a little fit with my Mom.
But HEY! ITS SUNDAY! God's Day!
What could possibly go wrong right?

Met Andre (Who waited half an hour for me)!
Well, Fionn! This isnt cause I
have Poor time management!

Had I known I was gna have a fit
with Mommy, I would have woken
up earlier. -_-"

Anyways, we used bus21! to church.
When we got off, Andre realized that
he left his bible on board. -_-"

&so, we dialled 100 &the lady on
the phone was being annoying.

SBS was even more annoying, their
phone services dont operate on sundays.

So yeaah, he said "Forget it la!"
&then we walked to Church.
Church was great, yeah reminded
me of the good ol' days back
in Balestier Corps! (:

For the first time in
dont-know-how-many-months,
I prayed. Yes. I did, without
anyone forcing me, it just
came naturally.

PRAYED FOR TWO MAIN PEOPLE.
___ & -.
Whatever I prayed for, is between
God &I. &Im not gna share it.

&Then when it was offering time,
I realized I lost my wallet.

Andre got fed up! Hhahaha!
He grabbed my hand &we left.

God bless this really nice aunty
at the bus stop. (: &also Bless
the nice Busdriver of 131!

We told him our situation &he
said I dont have to pay bus fare! :D!

HE ROCKS MAN!

In the bus, we prayed. Yeah seriously.
&Now, Im convinced God really exist.
&I hate myself for hating him so much
previously &losing my faith so easily.

Made a pact with God!
No vulgarities anymore.

Reached Whampoa interchange! &God bless
the honest people of Balestier! :D:D!
&I got back my wallet with everything INTACT!
&Andre got back his Bible with all the
pages INTACT also. (hoho!)

Yeaaah, we stayed at the Interchange for a
chat while waiting for the bus.
HAHAHAHA! :D:D!

Headed for Lunch or for me, Brunch!
At Kfc! Cheezito isnt that bad la!

Its kind of fun not swearing!
Like if Andre swears, I slap him.
&If I swear, he cant slap me!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH!

We slacked around Macs!

YES! The horrible truth Ladies!
ANDRE KUA JIE CHUN READS CLEO!
Look closely! Its the page with Female
Clothes! Tsk!

I told you, he's a cross dresser!
From the Roxy shirts! &Roxy slippers!
To the Pink boardshorts!

ANDRE KUA! I KNOW YOU TOO WELL!

Yes, he rummaged my bag! -_-"
Typical GIRLfriend. Hhaha!

Slapped him like 11times today!
Oh man! Super fun!

Yadda! &I stepped on his finger!
YEAH YOU KNOW WHY!
HE TOOK MY SLIPPER &DIDNT WNA
RETURN IT! IRRITATING RIGHT!

&He intended on slipping it on for me.
Oh please! Do I look like Cinderella
to you? Of course not! (I look better!)
HAHAHAHA! :D:D!

ANDRE KUA! MY BESTBUDDY!
Yes of course Im special! &have higher
ranks above alll your girlfriends! :D!

Thanks for today, really needed it.
&Better listen to Henry & dont ....!
Yaaah! Whateverrr!

If there's one thing I dont regret
going to Salvation Army, its Andre!
Known him since P5! Yeaaaaaaaah!

Love that ShortPunk!
He's like a brotherr!

ANYWAYS!

LOOK PAPA! I've got you a big nose!
(Out of a cereal box!) With this big
nose, you're sure to attract loads
of women!

Any race! Japan, Korea!, Hongkong!
ESP China people like XXX! (cause
she's adopted from China!) &Bignoses
are royalty to them!

I LOVE AYUNNI PUNANI SO MUCH!
&i definately love teasing her &her Adnan!
Arent they adorable?

&I sing "Adnan &Punani! sitting on a
tree, K.I.S.S.I.N.G! ........."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! :D:D!
Yes, lucky you, BEWARE! Im going
to steal Patrick Star away from you.
-EVIL LAUGHTER!

the unsuspecting victim. says:
but we're not together.ogay abby.next time.
i send you home.then.WE'RE TOGETHER!

Yeaaaah! Ayuthepu &I are a couple!
She's gna send me home EVERYDAY!

& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
we're family
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
what is yours is mine!
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
that sounded so wrong..
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
Uh abit la.
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
Haha, so i can borrow ____ away ah
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
hahaha
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
I havent finish my sentence
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
but what is mine! isnt yours!
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
hahahaha
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
i feel like disowning you already
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
haha
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
HHAHAHAHAHA!
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
YOU GAY AH!
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
why you wna borrow him!
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
borrow him go play game luh
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
then what?
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
Cannnnnot!
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
HE'S ALL MINE! MINE MINE MINE!
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
selfish bitch

OH MY GOSH! WHERE'S AHMA!
AH MA! AH MA! Look what Papa
called me! TSSSSSSK!

&after I said I wanted to complain to AHMA!
He immediatly changed!

& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
SAY AGAAAAAIN
& after all, you're my wonderwall says:
I tell Ah ma!
*Daryl; Smexy Papa - i still feel lonely says:
SELL-FISH BEACH

MEAN POOP!

Oh I had a Jolly good day!
I never knew ONE Sunday away from
Salvation Army could be so delightful!

QUOTE OF THE DAY!:
They say if you love something let it go
If it comes back it's yours
That's how you know
It's for keeps, yeah, it's for sure.

Song: Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

ADIOS! TATA! ZAI JIAN!

Peace be with you.

2006-10-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

There's no escaping love
Once a gentle breeze (once a gentle breeze)
Sweeps it's spell upon your heart
&no matter what you think, it won't be to long
'Till youre in my arms
Underneath the starlight starlight
We'll be lost in the rythm so right
It will steal your heart tonight

ROCK CLIMBING (:

Met Fionn at Bishan Mrt.
YESYESYES! I HAVE NO TIME MANAGEMENT!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH.

Sorry My Dearest Fionn Chuah!
I sumpah, promise &swear I wont be
late next time.

Cross my heart. (:

I dislike Sembawang. Yes, Reallyreally.
The toilets are so SMALL! &SMELLY.
TSK! Poor management.

I made a fool out of myself at the
photo shop thingo. Hahaahah!
The girl couldnt stop laughing at me.
Well, ITS NOT MY FAULT LA!

Miss Fionn Chuah was teaching me
how to smile. But obviously failed
cause I kept having fits of giggles!

YEHYEH! IM ADORABLE. :D!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAH!
(Yeah, when Celeste saw it she
said "WHA WHO'S THAT UGLY GIRL!"
Nehs, so mean. ):)

After that, we went to find Xiu &Chew. (Vanessa)
Went to PS for lunch, CHEEEEEEEKEN RICE!
But the chicken rice sucks la whalao!

But bo bian leh! Buy already, so just eat la.
Oh then there was this PERVERT. Whaseh!
He kept staring, &I was wondering if I
had like sauce on my face or smth.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHH!

&Then he made the kissing sound. -_-"!
Knn la. Annoying. I think he's blind or smth.

Yehyeh Ogay. We used a train to Farrer Park
&then watched to CLIMB ASIA! Climbing Centre.

I think I slept more than I climb.
EH I WAS SLEEPY CAN?

I just lied on the mats &slept! (:
Chew was next to me racing on mobile.
(Yeah Chew &I were the slackest!)

Fionn &Xiu completed like One wall.
&Us? Like Half only! HAHAHAHAH!
Yes, we rock! :D:D!

Laid somemoreeeeeeeeee!
Fionn told me something, arrgh. ):
Its kind of upsetting, so it sort of
dampened my mood la.

Anyways, had truckloads of fun.
I wna go again! Next time I'll bring
Mommy! Daddy! &Celeste! (:

We headed to Orchard. mmhm. :D:D!
I had IceCream! -BEAAAAMS!

Chew bought some coffee or smth.
&then Fionn left. ):

Xiu, Chew &I went to KFC!
MAJOR PIGGING OUT PLEASE!

Xiu ate like a cowwwwwwwwwwww!
Yeah Moo. :D:D!

Chew treated me to PEPSI! :D!
&I had Popcorn chicken!

Met Mommy, Celeste, Melissa &Fredrick!
afterwards, pang laa! They had Sushi. ):
WEHHS! ):

Anyhow, shopped. (I didnt buy anything!)
Melissa bought the Kappa bag! Yes!
The one Fionn is gna get!

well! I think its niceeee!!

&Celeste bought a Nike Bag!
&Fredrick bought a red puma shirt!
&Mommy bought presents for Tuaphui! &Rons!
&LOOK! I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING!

Yes. Im still determined to get that
Fourskin top. &Flesh Imp top too.
&a belt too.

YAYYYY! (: (:

Yeaaah! &so, Im back home now.

&Im happy. (:

Ohhhh ____!! (: .
I feel like hugging you til you die or smth! :D!

Hey Daryl, cheer up.
&dude, stop thinking, Im obviously
the nicest daughter. :D!

Artist: LeAnn Rimes
Song: I Need You

I dont need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
Ive always needed something
But Ive got all I want
When it comes to loving you
Youre my only reason
Youre my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
Theres a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

Youre the hope that moves me
To courage again
Youre the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And its so amazing
cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now
cause you’ve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heavens gate
Theres a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heavens gate
Theres a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

ADIOS!

PEACE BE WITH YOU.

OH! &BIGAIL DARLING! I wont be at church tomorrow,
infact, I doubt I'll be going back.
Im going to attend Timmy's church (That toot
wants me there! Hoho!) with my BestBuddy
ANDRE KUA! hahaha! :D!

Meet you some other time la ogay!
Loves! <3s!>

2006-10-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

&when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky, I'll make a wish
&Send it to heaven

Those are the photos I owed Y'all. (:

Movie date was GREAT! with Ariel &Fionn! (:

YEAH. Uh used a train to Somerset!
Bumped into Xiu &VanessaChew in the train!
STUPID CHEW! ):! She was suppose to
follow us for our Movie Date!

HEY MARK! I WASNT LATE!
HAHAHAHH! (:

Great improvement! :D:D!

Cheers Abby!

SPEAKING OF MARK! (:
Blogger likes me! &doesnt like him!
The weather likes me! &doesnt like him!
Xiu likes me! &doesnt like him!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! (:
Sillyboy.

They lunched at Subway! (smellyplace!)
&then we caught the movie Scoop!
It was pretty alright!

Why does everyone hate Woody Allen?
He's sooooo adorable!
I LIKE THAT SILLY OLD MAN!

Ariel hates the poopies out of him!
Shan Wee admitted on National Radio
that he isnt a fan of him either!
WEIRD PEOPLE! TSK!

Saw afew people in town. (:
EUNICE! STELLA! CELINE!
JUSTTI! BONNIE &MEIPING!

OH YES! ON TUES! WE DONT HAVE SCHOOL!
WHOOHOO! [:

Fionn &I are gna catch a movie at Shaw!
&then! we're going shopping! -beams!

SHE'S GNA GET HER BELT! (:
&IM GNA GET A FOURSKIN SHIRT!

YAY YAY YAY!

ANYONE WANTS TO JOIN US?

Im getting drunk just be listening to love songs.

YES ____! (: I do like you.
Time will tell. Exams first! (:

EVANESCENCE
"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave'
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to hea
lThis pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

ADIOS! (:

TATA-

2006-10-13T11:13:00.000+08:00

Why should I care
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip
&I'm in this thing alone

IM GOING ON AN AVRIL LAVIGNE FRENZY! (:
Reallyreally, her songs are so ...... ME!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

SO THERE'LL BE LIKE ................. HER
SONGS EVERYDAY UNTIL IM DONE
WITH THEM!

-BEAMS!

Nah, Im not upset this time.
Im just pissed.

But there's this strange feeling,
like Ive been punched right at the heart.
Is it normal? Have you felt it?

I feel like crying everything out
&hope that the pain would just vanish.
But it doesnt work that way does it?

Didnt you want me to move on?
Havent I been trying?
But why you do have to keep
coming back to screw things up?

Im leaving Salvation Army for good.
I hope you're happy.

Im really sick of being kept a secret.
Its unfair, all I ever wanted was to
be like others. Open &happy.

Not afraid to see people we know.

How my heart broke when you flung
my hand aside each time we see
a familiar face.

But you never understood.

&All you did, after all the sacrifices
I made, was break my heart.

How was I to feel?

The breakup was to your benefit.
I stand to gain nothing but this
stone cold appearance.

What was I to do?

&now, if you come to me saying you
hate me. I dont see a reason why.

How can you hate something
you've created?

Gee, maybe its just me.
Am I the only one out here who has
real emotions &feelings?

Or is it just you? A guy without
a damn for the world. Only for
himself?

Answer me.

Dont say you understand, cause
you dont. You've never had
your spirits crushed before.

Tell me, isnt back to
"Sad excuses, false hopes high?"

I told you I was afraid. Yes.
I was fearing that today might come.

But you assured me, telling me
everything would be fine,
I trusted you. But my trust, you betrayed.

&I was right, it did come.

How do you expect me to feel?
Fresh? Or Rotten?

How come everything gets to go
your way?

Yes, you hate me.
Thanks.

All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forward
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away

I feel like I'm all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I show youI don't think you'd understand
'Cause no one understands

16ABSENTEES from school today.
mmm, not bad aye?

Yesterday after the phone call,
I realize how fortunate I am, in a way
I thank God for my Mom. (:

Mommy was always there for me.
She wasnt mad at me instead
she offered me a hug &dried my tears.

Knowing that my spirits were down,
she allowed me to stay home.

I dont know what to say.
I dont know where to start.
I dont know how to react.
I dont know. I just dont know.

Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song: My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
&I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
&all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
&I thought we could be

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
&making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
&letting me know we were done

So much for my happy ending

Yeh Thats about it all.
I've tried.

Adios.

Peace be with you.
God will make a way, right?

2006-10-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

I LIKE THAT TOPSHOP TOP. (:

-BEAAAAMS!

SHOPPING TODAY WAS GREAT! :D!
Ogay, maybe not so great.

Somehow or rather, our moods were dampened.

&if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something.

Bought a pair of shorts anyway!
So that more or less made me a little happy. (:

IM ADDICTED TO CHICKEN RICE! (:
Yehyeh, I even made friends with the Aunty.
HER CHEEEEKEN RICE WAS GOOOOOD.

I WANT MORE! I WANT MORE!

Im such a pig. TSK. I cant stand myself.

ANYWAYS! SAW NINA! SAMNGUI! &NICOLE N!
NINA IS SUCH A MEANIEPOK! ):

Anyhow, glad ___ found it sweet!
SEE DARYL! YOU SEE! YOU SEE!

Who says he wouldnt appreciate it!
NEHNEHPOK.

ENCORE! ENCORE!

This was Our Song.
You used to sing it to me.
&now, its byfar the most disgusting
song ever. Fuck off bastard.
We've already broken up, so stop
screwing up my life. &if
it makes you feel better, go fuck yourself.

AEROSMITH - "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing"

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
& I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
&I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
&thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
&I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
&I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
& just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
&I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
&I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
I don't want to miss a thing

DINNERTIME! TUMMY'S GROWLING!

ADIOS!

Peace be with you.

2006-10-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near I might disappear I might lose my mind

Poor Samuel doesnt have anything to hug, so I drew him
a teddy bear to hugggggy! Oh tell me Im nice!

HELLO MARK! THERE'S YOUR PHOTO!

&For the bottom three, just be gay &spot the difference!

I'll post the rest of the photos later on.

Baby, I'm too lost in you, Caught in you.
MORNING!

CURRENT MODE: DEPRESSION.

No, I dont know why &I dont know how.
Im just super pissed off.

No, its not you, its me.

It has always been me.
My fault.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRGHFFFFFUCK!

CURRENT MODE: Faking Optimistism.
(Spellcheck? Check me! Check me!)

Yadda, Im pissed at the whole world.
Mostly annoyed at myself.

Im afraid of what the future brings,
especially when Im facing it alone,
Im falling apart.

Sigh.

What the eff is happening?
Each time I make a drastic decision
to move the heck on, I start backsliding
back into position.

Back into my original state of
depression. I dont know whats going
on or whats outcome gna be like.
Whatever it is, I just know that Im
alone, &i'll never make it through.

Do you know, each time I call you
a bastard, it fucking hurts?

There's this piercing sensation
through the heart.

&Boy or boy, it hurts 100000times
than a physical wound.

Cause physical wounds is visible for
all to see &it cures somewhat easily.

However, emotional wounds,
no one knows, no one else would feel
your pain &trust me, it takes an
awful long time to heal.

I've got this super strong feeling that
Im gna flunk all my papers. Well, mostly
science(s), maths &accounts.

Yeap, I've decided to withdraw myself
from Salvation Army. Its for the better,
anyhow, you want me gone, doncha.

Timmy keeps pestering me to go to his
church, Faith Assembly of God.

Boy, is it fun to tease him. (:

YAH. Steamboat was loads of fun
with Fionn.

Im just not in the mood to blog.
Perhaps I'll blog another time.

Yeah, Im glad ___ didnt sleep during
the papers! Hhaha! SILLY.

SING A SONG?

Artist: Howie Day
Song: Falling in Love

I'm so tired of falling love
finding it easier to fall out
I can't deny it
I'm feeling inside I keep it's fire, oh can I

I'm falling in love again
¬hing I can do
falling in love again
this times' with you
when I fall it's always the same
&I'm so tired of playing this game

been so long now
since I gave up my heart I kept it locked down
I don't want to get it hurt
so let me tell you now
I just want to be sure that you won't hurt me can you promise me that

you gotta tell me if you're going to break my heart
cause I don't want to take a chance
&if it ain't true all it's gonna be is nothing but a poor romance
so give me that promise to hold on
&I'll never let you go
I gotta have something to go on oh let me know now

I'm Falling in love again
(I'm falling oh I'm falling)
I'm Falling in love again
(~~girl~~boy you got me, yea you got me)
I'm Falling in love again
(ohhh I'm falling)
I'm Falling in love again
(ahh ah yea haha)
Falling in love again
Falling in love again
I'm Falling in love again
Falling in love again...

I DONT KNOW WHAT IM UP TO.
&I JUST WNA CRY. ):

WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY?
OH EASY! THAT PATRICK STAR
STUFFED TOY FROM THE ARCADE
AT SUNTEC &YOUR HEART.

YEAP, THAT'D BE NICE FOR A CHANGE.

ADIOS!

PEACE BE WITH YOU.

2006-10-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

Over The Rainbow
Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby
Some day I'll wish upon a star
&wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

When you go away, don't look back.

JEROME CHOSE ME!

Oh for more information,
please visit http://--breakyou.blogspot.com/!!
Its the Punani's blog.

PUNANI SAYS SHE WANTS TO
SLAUGHTER ME!

&HE SAYS HE'LL PROTECT ME
WITH HIS LIFE WORRRRRR!

He's MY romey! HHAHAHAH!

Ogay, that was gay!
Anyways, going out now.

Michelle Branch
Song: Everywhere

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
&when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here &who you are
'Cause every time I look you're never there
&every time I sleep you're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
&when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
&when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone I'm not alone

I am not alone Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

&when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
&when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything
I know that makes me believe I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
&when I catch my breath it's you
I breathe You're everything
I know that makes me believe I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Ogay! Got to run! Tata-!

2006-10-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

You're sweet just like the sun
But what happens when the sun doesnt stay?
The night reminds me when you went away
Now my mind was pacing,
heart is racing contemplating things that I lack
Even though you left me by myself, do I want you back?

She's my FAVOURITE. (: Joy! (:

DEFENCE IS PAPER THIN,
JUST ONE TOUCH &I'D BE IN.

WEHHHHS! ):

Ogay, Im listening to BU ZHUN KU.

NOT ALLOWED TO CRY!
NOT ALLOWED TO CRY!

Oh my Mama! Justti is right, this song
Seriously Literally ReallyReally pushes
you to the extend of challenging yourself.

I love your messages; I tried not
falling asleep during the paper today.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH!

Anyhow, Hello everyone, I've just flunked
my accounts paper. My brain died on me.

All I could remember was Journals! (:
Oh my favourite laaa. MCQ was easy.
Fuck Trading, Profit &Loss.

I WNA WNA WNA DROP ACCOUNTS.
YAAA! DROP ACCOUNTS LIKE ITS HOT!

Went straight home from school.
Talked to Daryl Papa! (: Hhahaa!

HELLO PAPA! I ADMIT, I AM HIDING
AFEW THINGS FROM YOU.
BUT DONT BLAME ME, IM JUST AFRAID.

But once this feeling is confirmed,
rest assured, I'll let you know &dont
worry, we wont pangseh you. (:

So Aunties of IJ, tomorrow is the
official last paper for Art students! (:

WELL! IM SCREWED! I HAVENT
COMPLETED MY PREP WORK!

-beams!

Everyone wants a song. (:

All American Rejects.
Song: Swing Swing

Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of ~~her~~ him
She's seeing other g~~uys~~irls
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
&I am left while the tears fall.

Did you think that I would cry, on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like, being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles
of My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold and so do I to a new love

Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)

Yeah! Maybe I'll find someone new.
Or have I?
I dont know. -shrugs!

I aint gna be that fool no more.
Not gna be a fool for you.
This brave front, you think I enjoy it?
Calling you a fucker, you think I like it?
But hey, look what you did to me.
Ogay! Im off to do my prep work!
5 EFFING PAPERS! ARRRRHHH!

Dont kacau me!

TA-.

Peace be with you.

Shall be like Daryl &Mark &SAY "Cant wait for wednesday! (:"

HAHAHAHAHA! YAAADA!

2006-10-09T17:09:00.000+08:00

&When you say you love me,
do you mean it? baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should I believe in magic in your eyes,
I would wait until the end of time to hear
you say you love me like you mean it,
baby when you hold me make me feel it.
All i wna do is make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times

AHEM! Those are Bel's fingers by the way. (She's such a pervie!)

I know I wna be when I grow up! Hhaha! A kodak aunty! Yeap
the ones that help you take passport/ic photos! (:
I do a pretty good job!

SUGAR WE'RE GOING DOWN. (:

Im a happier person.
With a tinge of loveeee.

Yadda, go wreck your mind to find out who.
You're never gna guess!

CAUSE I'LL KEEP ~~YOU~~
IT MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET!

Amazing how ONE message just
makes me feel like Im in heaven. (:

Chinese paper today sucked pretty much.
Slept for 45mins. (: Oof! Shiok-ka-neh!

I LOVE ARIEL ASHLEY TAN.
Hhaha, after Chinese, we started a bitching
topic regarding a certain someone.

Super Hilarious!

Fionn joined us too.

Walked with both of them to Tpy,
then Ariel went home to SLEEP! :D!

I hate myself for losing you
&oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through

&oh, I don't know what to say
&I don't know anyway anymore.

Went to Fork &Spoon for ChickenRice!
&then to Delifrance cause Fionn had
dirty cravings for IceCream! :D:D!

Yeap! Brought my Cleo mag along
&we browsed through! Spotted a couple
of pretty dresses. :D!

Oh EXAMS WILL BE OVER SOON!

Met Belnice at 145! &We used a bus to my place.
Like little kids, we stood by the window
&kept a look out for Evelyn (Our accounts tutor!)

We burst into the giggles when we spotted her!
So hilarious!

Accounts tuition drills the energy out of me!
Im always left feeling so lethargic &all
that bull la.

Anyways, just came back from United Sq!
Indulged in Sinful Ben &Jerrys!

3Cheers to Choco Fudge Brownie!
Always sets a smile on my face. (:

(Well, better a smile than a big nose
aye Daryl?)

Walked around with Belnice!

OH &YESYES!
I HAD LOADS OF FUN PLAYING
AT THE ESCALATORS! (:

Oh fun memories.

I hate Hender sometimes!

Hender: Abby, you know, you're actually quite
smart leh. You just cant be bothered sometimes.

Abby: Chey! At least better than you lor,
stupid all over!

-Walks away!
-GRINS!

Rightos! I cant wait to call Daryl tonight!
Have pangggg of things to tell him. :D:D!

OGAY! HERE'S THE SONG THAT HAS BEEN
STUCK IN MY HEAD SINCE ... YAAAH WHATEVER!
It has been stuck in Fionn's head too. (:

Oh I just love it.

RELIENT K
"Be My Escape"

Ive given up on giving up slowly,
Im blending in so You wont even know me apart
from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away

&Ive been housing all this doubt and insecurity
&Ive been locked inside that house all the while
You hold the key

&Ive been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, theres no way in knowing where to go,
promise Im going because

I gotta get outta here Im stuck inside this rut that
I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
&Im begging You, Im begging You,
Im begging You to be my escape.

Im giving up on doing this alone now
Cause Ive failed and Im ready to be shown how
Hes told me the way & I’m trying to get there
&this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that Im every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause Ive been housing all this doubt and insecurity
&Ive been locked inside that house all the
while You hold the key

&Ive been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
&even though, theres no way in knowing where to go,
promise Im going because

I gotta get outta here
Cause Im afraid that this complacency is something
I cant shake, I gotta get outta here
&Im begging You, Im begging You,
Im begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess
Ive made &all Im asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I cant ask You to give what You already gave

Cause Ive been housing all this doubt and insecurity
&Ive been locked inside that house all the while
you hold the key &Ive been dying to get out
&that might be the death of me

&even though, theres no way in knowing where to go,
promise Im going because, Ive gotta get outta here
Im stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
Ive gotta get outta here
&Im begging You, Im begging You,
Im begging You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
&all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You

WEHHS! ): This song actually means alot.
Bold words for You.

Im sick of having doubts &insecurities!
Why not just fuck them upside down.

One things' for sure, Thanks for making
me feel like Poop for the past 4months.
Thanks for all the broken promises,
Thanks for not being there at all.

I never ever wna speak to you again,
much less see you.

The biggest mistake I made was actually
believing you. Fucker.

Daryl, am I doing the right thing?
Its gna be fucking difficult, but Im downright
bottomline determined to move on.

Someone please show me the way.

2006-10-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

You're just another face in the crowd, I'm letting you know.

Yesterday was really fun. (:

Daryl, Sophina &Mark were driving me
sky high! Hahhah! (:

Oh I love them. Yes Daryl, All of you!
So dont think otherwise! Hahah!

I think age is catching up with you,
thats why you tend to think a little
too much ah.

We were all discussing about the BigNose. (:
HAHAHAHAHAAAAHH!

Well, Mark was in a different convo so I
had him updating with the jokes Daryl
&Sophina cracked regarding the BigNose!

HAHAHA. :D!

Broke down again today. ):

A big teddy hug to Daryl.

I like it cause he showers me with loads of attention. (:
(Yes, I like Attention, thankyou.)
I like it cause he ALWAYS answers my call.
I like it cause he keeps his promises!
I like it cause he's forever boosting my ego.
I like it cause he never gives me on me!
I like it cause he puts up with my tears
&have never once complained!

I also like it cause he NEVER EVER fails to
put a big wide grin on my face after each
phone call. (:

OH ALL IN ALL! I LOVE MY DADDY DARYL. (:

WELL LADIES! WHATCHA WAITING FOR?
THE SKY TO DROP AH?

GRAB MY DADDY! HE IS ONE IN 10MILLION! (:

Xiu is turning me into a Clay Aiken fan. Hhaha!

ABBY SINGS!

"&when you say you love me do you mean it,
baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should I believe in magic in your eyes,
I would wait until the end of time to
hear you say you love me like you mean it,
baby when you hold me make me feel it.
All I wna do is make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times."

Lunch was fantastic. (:
I love the Kids.

My top2 favourite are JOY &JERROLD!
Honestly, I sayang them more than others!

Joy is just the most most most adorable
little sweetheart ever! I could just hug
her &fly to heaven or something.

Jerrold on the hand! Is so "NGIAO?"
Yeaaah! Super "Teh!"! &he's really
nice to talk to, even though his only p4!
I share my problems with him &I hope
he doesnt make the same mistakes as I did.

Anyhow! Those two seriously make my day! (:
Just having them around turns my frown into a grin!
They remind me of You, with them around,
I can be as childish as I want, let my hair
down &run, without fearing that others might
comment or laugh.

Headed to NTUC with Mommy &Daddy.
Cel went with Aunty Ade. Ohwells!

I think the lady at NTUC suspects that
we own an orphanage or smth! Haha!
This time, we had twice the load!
TWO TROLLEYS ALL TOGETHER!

Hahaha! (:

TheWongs rock!

Oh yes! Please flip to pages 126 &127
of your Cleo Mags! (: It explains why
people resort to self-abuse.

I was nice enough to post afew ripp offs
from it in my private blog! But Im
lazy to do so here! Nehs!

&I think You should read it.

ITS DINNERTIME &IM HAVING
CHEESEFRIES FOR DINNER! (:

Yummy.

OGAY. Here's a nice Clay Aiken Song!

CLAY AIKEN
"This Is The Night"

When the world wasn't upside down,
I could take all the time I had
But I'm not going to wait when a moment can vanish so fast

'Cos every kiss is a kiss you can never get back
Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night

When the answer to all my dreams is as close as a touch away
Why am I here holding back what I'm trying to say?

Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night

This is the night where we capture forever and our tomorrows begin
After tonight, we will never be lonely again

Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night

Actually I do have heaps more to say,
but Ive already posted them in my private blog.
&only Daryl Papa has the url. (:

&I miss WeiJun &Gary. Wehhs!
IM SO GNA GO TO GRACEHAVEN
NEXT NEXT WEEK! (:

I do have a molecule of feeling for ___!

FUNNY AYE?
Slap me laaa. Knn.

Ta-

Peace be with you.

2006-10-07T19:35:00.000+08:00

Hold me close to you &never let me go.

SEE! MY COLOURFUL CHINESE WORDS! (:

&those are Fionns'!

ANNA! LOOK! IM RE-WRITING YOUR LETTER!

The HAMSUM boy! Haha! We was videoing us! Tsk!

ESCALATORS! Baby, remember? We used to play together.

Rusty mistook the pinktexter as lipstick, I think ..

CREDIT GINA! FOR THE PHOTOS.
Sometimes I wna call you, but I know you'll not be there.

I had effing bad ___! this morning. ):
WEHHS.

Was half an hour late! Sorry Fionn!
Sigh, the stupid Haze is affecting my mood!
It makes everything seem so dull &eeky.

We studied at BurgerKing! :D!
CheenaChinese!

Then Gina came over for awhile! &we took
silly photos! but she FORBIDS me to
post them here! ):

I feel so proud of myself! I actually did CHINESE!
Mdm Koh (tutor!) is also super proud of me
cause when she tested me! I got most of
it correct!

YABBA DABBO DOO!

DARYL MY SUGARPAPA!
YOU MUST CARRY ME! &RUN
AFTER MARK! SO I CAN SLAP HIM!

Ps. Dont run the other direction ah!

example:
- SuPeRsTaR!! Project D {Theory Of Maximum Street Velocity!} says:
hahaha he will carry u n run in the other direction =D

JESSE MCCARTNEY -"Without You"
I like when you whisper softly
Things only I should hear
That lead me on
I do like it when you whisper softly into my ear! (:
I like the way that you smile at me
And make me feel like nothin'
Can go wrong

Tell me this will last forever
Dont you ever leave
Come back, would you?
I dont wanna be without you
dream without you
walk without you
talk without you baby
My sentiments exactly.
Never take a chance without you
Dance without you
Nothing is the same without you baby
Nothing at all, everything seems dull &lifeless.
I could never deal witout you
Heal without you
Begin without you
End without you

Baby, Im in need
I can't breathe
No, I don't wanna be
Without you
I dont wna ever be without you!
I love when your eyes wash over me
With a look only I can tell
Whats on your mind

I love the way that you find me
Whenever I've lost my way
You're just in time

Baby we've got something started
Say we'll never stop

I'll lock up my heart
and throw away the key
if thats what it takes
To keep your love with me

You open the door
To all thats good in me
I cant deny the truth
That I could never be without you

Taaaaa-!

Peace with with you.

Sometimes I feel, I cant live another
day without hearing your voice &your
breath against my skin. The touch of
your lips against my cheek.

2006-10-07T12:56:00.000+08:00

I'll show you how to love again.

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME IM ADORABLE! (:

What do you do when you get bored during
BIOLOGY paper?

ANSWER: SHOOT BLACK RUBBER BANDS!
AT INNOCENT PEOPLE!

I SHOT 3RUBBER BANDS AT:
VAAN! SEIRIOL! &FRANCESCAAAA!

Oh Abby! You're so adorable. (:
HAHAHA!

Gna meet Fionn &we're gna study CHINESE!
MMHMM, IM GNA PASS!

OLE OLE OLE OLE!

Ariel's having the weekend off.
Like DUHH! That fuck = my ass woman
ain't gna study for chinese, that'd
be the LAST thing she does!

Yabba Dabba Doo!

"The First Cut Is The Deepest"
Sheryl Crow! (Hi, Im Abigail Megpie [spellcheck?])

(OH REMEMBER? FATTYFARAH USED
TO CRY WHENEVER SHE HEARD THIS SONG!
What a Mother!)

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
&he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
&I'm sure gonna give you a try
If you want I'll try to love again, (try)
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

Ironic! I want you back.

Ohwells, TAAAAAA-

Peace be with you.
We're gna drink our sorrows away &hope
tomorrow never comes.

I've tried hating you only to find
myself hating me even more, for being
a fool &letting you leave.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to
trust another guy now? Do you?
You betrayed my trust with promises
left unkept. Why are you the one with
the good life? Why must I be the one who's
constantly suffering? She treated you that way,
you didnt have to treat me that way.

What was I? A substitude?

2006-10-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
BLACK!

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
Oh the usual poopoo!

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Chatting with Gina on the phone! :D!

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
Honestly, no.

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Yeap! (:

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
I WISH I COULD!

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
Yeap.

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
Nothing.

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
Uhm No, not anymore!

11. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
Uhm.

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
All the time.

13. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
Plenty.

14. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
Not exactly.

15. Honestly, are you loyal?
Mhmm!

16. Honestly, are you in denial?
Self denial? Yeah.

17. Honestly, who would you wanna be with right now?
That one.

18. Honestly, do you like anyone?
Perhaps.

19. Honestly, does anyone like you?
Honestly, No.

20. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
To hell maybe.

OGAY! IM BORED.

During the break.

Fionn: Aiyah shit! Im having my that thing.
Ariel: What thing?
Ariel &Abby: (SHOUTS!) MENSES AH?
Ariel: Why so shy? You must shout it out loud!
Ariel &Abby: (SHOUTS!) MENSES! -waves arms around!
Abby: (SHOUTS) NEED PAD NOT?
VanessaChew: (giggles!)

&30mins ago!

Ayunni the Punani &I were teasing Farah!

the unsuspecting victim is Ayunni.
!/ Missing link on the brink of destruction is ME!
i'll be your mirror, helping you face reality is Farah!

Here's our convo:

the unsuspecting victim. says:
dress+abby=sexy!
the unsuspecting victim. says:
farah+damn les=LES!
the unsuspecting victim. says:
ayunni+punani=AYUTHEPU!

(ogay, so maybe Ayunni was talking to herself la!)

Next Convo, (Ayu was trying to save Farah
who apparently "Fainted" during Ayu's
BAYWATCH demo!)

i'll be your mirror, helping you face reality says:
do you even know how to do cpr?
!/ Missing link on the brink of destruction says:
ohh.
the unsuspecting victim. says:
yes!
!/ Missing link on the brink of destruction says:
she just stick her tongue into your mouth
!/ Missing link on the brink of destruction says:
&SUCK!

&the Concluding convo! (Ayunni bidding her goodbyes!)

the unsuspecting victim. says:
bye sexy
the unsuspecting victim. says:
bye err
!/ Missing link on the brink of destruction says:
bye punani!
the unsuspecting victim. says:
forested pao

(Farah is forested pao! Its a sick joke!)

Ta-
Peace be with you!
Broken again, I cant pretend.

2006-10-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

Reality? No! Its Cruelty!

I love you guys! (:
Especially Vera, Cheng, Gina &Mark for the smses!
&Also those sillypoopers who revised with me!
&Those who gave "Goodluck" tickles! &hugs!

I WORE MY SCHOOL BLOUSE INSIDE-OUT
THIS MORNINGGGGGGGGG!

But I realized it before I stepped out of
the toilet! (: Oh smart me!

-sings a lala!

However, Fart! wore her blouse inside-out
all the way to school &all the way through geog
&bio paper!

She rocks aye?
Yeah &I love her just the way she is! :D!

Geog paper was a breeze! I even had time to
sleep like cow! Moo! Yaaadda!

During the break, Ariel &VanessaChew
helped me with Bio! Oh eff laaaa, the paper
was BLOODY HARD! I looked at it &felt like
crying! WEHHS!

Oh I cant wait until WEDNESDAY! (:
I love Wednesdays for a hundred &1 reasons.

Art sums up the whole exam!
Fionn &I have planned what to do &where to go!
WE'RE BOOKED! NehNannyPooPoo! :D

WE'RE GOING ROCK CLIMBING ON SATURDAY
WITH XIU &VANESSA CHEW!

&we've also planned Sentosa outtings!
&shopping dates! &we're gna buy ___!
&dresses! &loads of pretty gay things!

Oh so Fun! (:

Esplanade date with Fionn was great!
Managed to get every little bit
of sorrow out of my system &blurt
it all out to her!

She shared hers as well! So yeppers!
Im reaaaally happy that I have someone
close by if I wna confide in &also heart
to heart talks! (:

&we saw this reaaally hot guy!
Eurasian! :D! He looks like Henry from
my lovely samsoon!

Ohwells! But as hot as Henry is,
ZHENXIAN is still the hottest!

Ogay, me &my korean dramas hurr! -_-"

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

STUPID BEN KOH! You actually have the audacity
to block me! You're pure shitness!

The haze is pretty bad aye?
&I thought the window was dirty. -_-"

MARIO
"Let Me Love You"
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you
everything you want &need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

If only sad memories were played once but never
to be repeated again. Its much much harder to accept.
They pierce right through; one way in &no way out.

ITS GNA BE DRINKS! DRINKS! &TWO LOVELY DRUNKARDS.
Cheers Fionn!

Pretending is tiring. ):

Ta-

Peace be with you.

2006-10-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

'Cause every kiss is a kiss you can never get back.
SO I WANT MORE! FROM YOU!

So hello all, Im back!

Xiu &I met Mark at Entertainment.
Ec Macs was FULL!
Hello, who says no one reads your blog aye?
(By the way, Mark is FREAKIN' TALL!
Oof, Im jealous! ): )
I do read your blog, infact, I visit it every single day.
So yadda, headed to the library.
Xiu was hogging my notes so I couldnt
study! Anyways, continue reading
"Where Rainbows End"! Its so sweeet.
Oh but then again, Im a nobody.
Saw BrandonYow &Co. there.

YAKKED &YAKKED!

Im pretty happy that ___'s boyfr is such a WORM! :D!
Im also pretty happy that ___'s bestie is such a DOG! :D!

GO STEVEN GO! GO STEVEN GO!

Ohwells, ___, your boyfr is nothing but noseshit!
Just flick him to ChingChongChina laa!

Yeaaaah! Saw other Bulls at tpy!
Im straving! Cant wait for dinner!
Wonder what Mama (Granny!) cooked today!
Yummy.

Anyways, talking to Daryl nowww!
He was BUSY just now!

WHAT KIND OF PAPA IS TOO BUSY
FOR HIS FAVOURITE DAUGHTER?

TELL ME! TELL ME! TELL ME! TELL ME NOW!

Sometimes its better not to highlight.
Sometimes its better not to know.

OH MY TUMMY IS GRUMBLING! ):

"When you say you love me"

&when you say you love me do you mean it,
baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should I believe in magic in your eyes,
I would wait until the end of time to hear you
say you love me like you mean it,
baby when you hold me make me feel it.
All wna do is make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times.
PLEASE!
Ta-

Peace be with you.

I NEVER GE T TO CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY IN SINGAPORE. ):
SO ITS A MUST THAT I HAVE A SMALL GET TOGETHER!
Yeaah, just a small little gathering with the cliques!
I want you there, but you'll only end up hurting me.

2006-10-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

&An exquisite extreme I know;
But you'll never know what you made me go through.
You've never been in my position before.

Xius' at my place now. (:
&she's actually STUDYING!

I can proudly say (oh maybe not so proudly),
I've flunked my Maths &Physics paper!

To begin with, I didnt read instructions! ):
Who bothers to read anyway?

ARGH. I JUST WNA TURN BACK TIME.
MrLimlim wasnt very happy when I
said Im sure to fail maths!
Then maybe I wouldnt have allowed you to leave.
He said "NO!" like super dramatic!
&maybe then, I would do anything to change your mind.
Yaaada, Ariel was hilarious this morning!
She was teaching us methods to remember
the formulas &all those bull.
Or perhaps I should have jumped down the building when I actually had the chance to.
Force = Mass x Acceleration.
I just wna cry everything out over &over again.
Also know as:
But I cant, I dont even have the time for that.
F = MA
Its bad enough stressing for the papers.
In Ariel's mind it is:
Bet you're beaming, knowing that I've flunked them.
FUCK = MY ASS! :D:D!
Never thought you were so ____.
-beams!
Cant accept the fact either.
Had breakfast-cum-lunch with Xiu
at Maccas! &we got bored so, yaadda!
I want you back. Now.
Going back to tpy again to study!
Oh I lead a disgusting life.

"I Don't Think So"

Has there ever been a moment so good?
Has there ever been a morning so bright?
You know the whole world looks different
Since I found you
mmhmm, thats true boy.
Before we touched was I really alive?
Some things you just know for sure
Beyond a shadow of a doubt

Now I'm too into you
To ever turn my heart around
Is the sun gonna shine on a rainy night?
I don't think so
Does once in a lifetime happen twice?
I don't think so
Pour coke over your corrupted brain. What have they done do you?
Could I want you any more
Could anything ever be more right?
Can words explain
How deep?
Deep is the wound you left me with. Deep is the scar you left me with.
Ogay, Suppose thats all.
IM STILL MISSING YOU.
Wonder if you still remember me &the good times we had.
TAAAA-
Im still not used to it.
Peace be with you.

2006-10-04T14:11:00.000+08:00

I couldn't sing a love song

I FEEL LIKE CRYING. ):

I totally screwed Maths up today.

&Justti didnt scream, so that means, the
paper sucked. ):

OHWELLS! I've learn something today though,
MrJiow is the 2nd sweeeetest (Not as sweet as
MrB.C) teacher!

Yadddda!

My laopok calculator died on me,
&I told MrJiow! unlike other teachers whom
Im sure, wouldnt give a damn, he went all
the way out to borrow a calculator for me! (:

Nice, aint he!

Yeap, anyways, Fionn followed me home
cause I forgot to bring my money.
&we had lunch at Hans!

Then came back to my place,
did a little of bloghopping.

IM SO ANNOYED!
After Mings told me about ___!
Fuck ___!

Steven is sooo gna kick ___'s boyfr's butt!
Anyways ___'s boyfr looks like a WORM!
Steven can easily flick him all the way to
ChingChongChina!

Even Daryl thinks he looks like a WORM!
DISGUSTING WORRRRRRRRRRM!
ewww!

Believe it or not?

You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

Totally Agreeable.

Like the whole MrJiow case!
The years' ending, its kind of sad.
I never appreciated him &the things he
did for us.

But somehow, now I see,
the things he did, he did it for us.

I SHALL NOT BE SO MEAN TO HIM ANYMORE.
You like watching me crack dont you,
here's a song, for the cruels.
Honestly, I didnt see it coming, I never
knew you were gna break me down so bad.
"Break My Heart"

Someone always gets their hearts stomped to the ground
This is what I see every time I look around
I never thought that this would happen to me
I never thought I'd end up this way

And now that you're through with me
Don't know what to do with me
I guess I'm my own again
Like I'm some kind of enemy
Never a friend to me
Remember when you used to say
Things will always be this way
Yeah, remember the promises you made?
Why don't you, break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me.
Are you blind to all these hurts you've caused?
Now I'm trying to get my heart up off the ground
My confidence is gone
Happiness can not be found
So look what you did to me
You got the best of me
And now I'm stuck with all the rest
It will never be the same
The songs you sang, the joy we had.
Why don't you, break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me
Trapped alone, all alone, you left me with broken promises.
Break my heart
Watch me fall apart you see
I'm falling apart, look what you're doing to me
I dont care what people think, its you, it has been you all along.
All I ever wanted
Has left me standing here alone
It started with you and ended with me
Fuck those who comment, fuck those who interfered.
All I ever needed
I had it with you in my arms
It started with you and ended with me
Dont you see? This song, is &was everything I
wanted you to know. Telling me you're not selfish?
Oh come on', you're a happy goober, Im a miserable mooner.
I just wna be with you, happy &carefree.
Yadda, Ta-

Peace be with you.
Lost you &the passion for Maths.
Its back to square1.

2006-10-03T19:39:00.000+08:00

Just my Valentine, Lemonlime &I.

-Looks at the sentence above.

Pretty gay hurr? I was daydreaming &suddenly
the song MrJiow taught us during camp
knocked my head!

Beaytiful book! ITS MUST READ!
There's actually an Abigial Road! Along the streets of Dublin, Ireland.

Hello Xiu &her apple pie!
Told you I could fit in the locker!

THATS JUSTT'S SILLY LEAFLET!
SEE LAA! Stupid Mellie's testymonial affects my sociallife!
So I had to defend myself against it!

Anyways, woke up at 11am.
Cried like a stupid bitch last night,
while everyone was fastly asleep, I was up,
thinking about us, remembering our funtimes.
HAHAHAHA! STUPID FART! (:
She's sooo hilarious, everyone should just slap her!

Shant maluate her here but I seriously cant
wait for school tomorrow so I can tease her
about it. Hoohoo!

Met Xiu at TPY! &we had breakfast-cum-lunch!
Wasted time at school!

Hung around with Gowri &Sho-b.

Then used 88 to Hougang! -_-"
So bloody farrrr, felt like vomiting.

-faints.

Met Justti, Shorini &Laava there!
Did maths! Its oh-so-sucky!

I DONT LIKE HOUGANG! ):
ITS POLLUTED WITH LIANS &BENGS!
Noooo, not like those try hard ones in tpy!
They actually BEAT people them!

Literally! Verbally! ReallyReally!

&yeah, their really BRAINLESS!
This bastard tried to burn the glass
door with a lighter. -_-"

Smart or what? Aye?

Used a bus back to Amk &then an Mrt
to Novena!

In the train, I was bored so I played a silly
game! by myself of course.
I looked at a random persons' face &guess
where they stay!

I got like 2 out of 3 right! :D:D!

Amazing! You can tell where people live
through their faces!

I was thinking "umm yeah, this guy got the
tpy face!" & "Aiyah easy peasy! That aunty got
the bishan face"

&yaddda!

So gay laaa, but I was bored!
What to do?

Talked to Daddy just now!
He's sooo lame, he's doing a project
with DBS! &he says that it isnt going
too well.

So he says DBS stands for "DAMN BLOODY SUAY!"

Haaaahhaha!

Loving this song, lyrics are so darn sweet.

"Because You Loved Me"

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby
I love you.
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
More than anything &everything
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me
You were everything to me.
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
But now you're gone

Pretty Ironically Similar aye?
Cant do anything about it, just sitting here,
waiting for the BIG UGLY ALIEN to spit its
corruptive icky saliva &engulf the earth.

TA-

Peace be with you.

2006-10-02T20:09:00.000+08:00

1)Who did you last go out with?
FionnChuah!

(2) What do you want to receive on your birthday?
Someone perhaps.

(3) Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
The phone! (:

(4) What time did you sleep last night?
Uh 11.30pm.

(5) What's the wallpaper on your computer?
Joy &i!

(6) What can you hear besides the computer?
Deja Vu -Beyonce!

(7) Do you agree to the saying "to Forgive is to forget"?
Nopes!

(8) When, where was the last time tears started to
roll down your cheek?
Do not wish to answer.

(9) What/who makes you happy?
Purple Yakult.

(10) What makes you sad?
Heartbreaks.

(11) What are your favorite books?
PS. I LOVE YOU &Where rainbows end.

(12) What would you like to have right at this moment
which seems totally impossible?

(13) Who will you turn to if you have a huge problem that
not all your friends know about?
FionnChuah, JusttiYang.

(14) What's your favorite song at the moment?
A whole new world. :D:D!

(15) What was the last song that kept ringing in
your mind last night before you sleep?
Deja Vu.

(16) What was the best event that happened lastyear?
My life is boring goo, nothing happens.
Everyone just comes &goes like no one gives a damn.

(17) Where did you go today?
Town.

(18) Last thing you eat?
Mama's home cooked food!

(19) Who were you with? Were they cool?
My grandmom, duh! she's cool!

(20) Have you gone to the beach just w/ yourbuddies?
Pardon me?

(21)Do you love sunsets?
Their beautiful but meaningless.

(22)When is your b-day?
30TH NOVEMBER.

(23)What are your wishes for your birthday?
Its gna be a secret.

(24)Who do you wanna be w/ on the day of yourbirthday?
Someone.

(25)Have you ever felt that you've been taken forgranted?
All the time.

(26) thing/s you regret?
Letting go.

(27) Is there anything else you want to do besides
answering this survey?
Ahberden.

(28)What's the most important sentence/s that
lingers in your mind right now?
Time doesnt heal all wounds.

(29)Is there someone you're missing right now?
All the time.

(30)Do you love someone right now?
All the time.

FWALALALA!
Gina asked me to do this laaa! :D!

'cause everybody needs somebody to love
'cause everybody wants somebody to hug
'cause everybody needs somebody to kiss
someone just like you who's heaven sent

Taaaa-

Peace be with you.

2006-10-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hey I cant stop lovin' you.
No I cant stop lovin' you.

SCREW SOCIAL!

2 &a half down, plenty to go.

Yaddda, chinese paper1 sucked majorly.
Had this super duper awful tummyache during it.

Zhanglao had to walk me allll the way to the toilet,
gosh, everyone in every class turned to look,
I felt like a star. (:

Toilet queen. (:

Was bored halfway through the chinese paper
so its-oh-so-typical abby! I played around with
my electronic dictionary!

omgzxzx! so UNfun. -_-"

Vanessachew is sooo silly! :D:D!
She put her hands on my forehead &asked
"Guess who?"

&i was like "uhh you're not covering
my eyes?"

&then everyone starts laughing. -_-"
SILLYVANESSACHEW!

Yeaah &now she's covering it up
by saying she was checking if I was
having a fever? Ogay! Super Random!

Yaaaadddaa! Listening to BU ZHUN KU!
Justti is right! (Isnt she always?)

Must be strong ogaaaay Abby!
Everytime you wna cry, just blast
this song "BU ZHUN KU!"

I'll still cry anyways laa. Im such a cry baby. ):
FINALLY HAD A CHAT WITH DARYL YESTERDAY!
Ohhhh SMEXXXXXXXXXXY. (:

That paaaang kept interrupting my every sentence!
Tssssk! But it was fun catching with that paaang!

AUDREY! SMEXY IS HORRIBLE!
HE DIDNT GET ME ANYTHING FROM SHANGHAI!
Did he get you anything?

If he did then he's BIAS! ):

Anyhow, went for lunch at town, with Fionn.
Goodygoo! I feel like a fat pig.
I hate pastamania nowwww. -pukes.

Yeppers, we talked about things!
Everything seems so screwed laa,
especially in our lifes!

Made a new friend in the train!
He's sooooo handsome! &Gives killers winks!
I swear, I almost died &flew to heaven laa!

-melts!

Yaaa, one tiny little detail, he's 4years old! :D!

Baby I can't go anywhere
Without thinking that you're there
Seems like you're everywhere, it's true
Gotta be having Deja Vu
'Cause in my mind I want you here
Get on the next plane, I don't care
Is it because I'm missing you
That I'm having Deja Vu

&Find my private blog all you people want laaa,
just dont go saying that "she only wants sympathy".
Oh you bloody morons! Being natural kpos,
searched my private blog out &have the
guts to actually such things?

Go fugg yourself upside down.

&you, mom asked me, why you looked so upset.
I told her "its an act, he's the happiest man on earth
&the most heartless one too"

&guess what? mom said "I know that boy,
I know how he is &I know you well too, he isnt
that sort."

So what was that suppose to mean?
Oh yeah, I forgot, its always my fault.

Ohwells, 3cheers for bitter revenge.
TAAAA-

Peace be with you.

Hey have I told you, I love you?
Hey have I told you, I miss you?
Hey have I told you, you dont give a damn?
Hey have I told you, you broke my heart?

2006-10-01T19:42:00.000+08:00

Somebody said they saw her cryin
'Said she was through with all your lyin'
Shame about that

SillyBigail requested that I do this, ripped it off her blog. (:
&YES! THANK GOD I WAS READING YOUR BLOG!
OR ELSE, YOU'D PROBABLY GET SO MAD AT ME
&SKIN MY BACKSIDE ALIVE!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

7 wierd facts about me.

1. I find gays adorable. (:
2. Bugs creep me out.
3. I have loads of dirty little secrets!
4. I believe in destiny.
5. I cry at the slightest thing!
6. Tall guys interest me.
7. Im hilariously short.

7 habits about me.

1. The first thing I do when I wake up is
rub my eyes.
2. I only drink purple yakult. (:
3. I must blow my hair dry after every wash!
ITS A MUST!
4. I poke Jerrold in the tummy each
time I see him!
5. Washing my face all the time to
prevent a pimple outbreak!
6. Signing into MSN each time I come online.
7. Reading all the past smses he sent.

7 people to do this.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7. ANYONE WHO'S BORED.

See Bigail! I did it! I did it!
Bet you love me more right now! (:

Ta-
Peace be with you.

2006-10-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

Cause that's me I don't ask for much, Baby.
Having you is enough.

The kids performance. (:
In my opinion, they did great. (:
Jerrold &I! I loveeee teasing him so badly!
&thats the kind of expression he always gives me!

Ellen! (: Mongggggg having hokkien mee!
JOYYY!
This little girl is a candy addict! (: Bribe her with lollies! It works!
Jerrold proudly showing off his shirt! "Its all about Jesus' love!"

DADDDDDDDDDY &I!

Left to right: Ellen, Joy, Joylene, Janice, Jerrold, Marcus, Cel &I

Though these little kiddos may be hilariously annoying sometimes, ohwells,
actually, most of the time! They make me happy! (:

Ellen &I!

Credit Cheng for the Hershey bar photos!

Dashed out the service during _________.

Ellen, who sat all the way at the other end
noticed I ran out.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
WAS IT THAT OBVIOUS?

Came back with a really red nose.
Mom wasnt too happy about it,
but yeah, Im glad she gave me some
space.

I love my Mommy. (:
Though we have our fits, moodswings &yadda
but I STILL LOVE HERRRRRRRRR!

Had lunch with Ellen &all again! :D:D!
Yay! The kids make my day!
Especially Jerrold (fei tan) &Joy.

Yeaaah! Was teasing Jerrold in the car!
POKE POKE POKE HIS FAAAAATS!
PINCH PINCH PINCH HIS CHEEKS!
TICKLE TICKLE TICKLE HIS TUMMY!

Yaaah! Had lunch, talked to Ellen about things!
Its always nice to have someone who's able
to relate to you aye?

Cheers to Ellen. (:

We joined the kids at the playground!
Oh hoho! The swings are my favourite!
Though I have a little phobia!

But it was fun screaming my ass off!
Well, least it released a little bit of angst.

Good for health!
I think Im gna buy a swing &maybe
I would become happier gooberry!

You think so?

YAAA! Anyways, there's a farewell dinner
which Im gna attend in an hours time!

MELVIN ISNT GOING! ):
CLEMENT ISNT GOING! ):

Ohhh shitness! I have things to ask
my hunky cousin.

Uncle Freddy is going back to Melb.
God bless that man. (:
He's a good man!

I have to blog in my private blog NOW!
Ta-
Peace be with you.

2006-09-30T16:34:00.000+08:00

Some day I'll wish upon a star
&wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops

Im broken beyond repair.

Brandy -Have you ever.

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
&you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes
& Dreamed that they were there
& all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cause baby I can't sleep

I cry, I cant sleep, I cant find the words to tell you,
&yes, I'd do anything to try make you understand.

You on the other hand?

You dont cry, you can sleep, you make talking
seem so easy, you've forgotten about us,
&you'd you anything just to get me away.

I feel so alone, looking back at the broken
promises; you just .... forget it.

So I guess today is one of those days,
I tangle myself up in you &our memories.

Thanks for acting like you cared;

I just feel like crying.

I have loads to say in my private blog.

Ta-
&peace be with you.

2006-09-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

I keep your picture beside my bed,
& I still remember everything you said

School drove me halfway to insanity.
The lessons today seemed long &neverending.
Or maybe the problem lies with me.

Doesnt it always?
Isnt it always my fault.

Ohwells, I cant seem to concentrate,
the exams are just NEXTEFFINGWEEK!
&what the fuck am I doing?

Im so tied up in you, sometimes I wish I
could just sit on a magic carpet &sing

"I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me"

Yahh! I think I seriously need a ride on
the magic carpet. It'd be beautiful!
I shall go sit on the rug &make a wish,
maybe the rug would start flying! (:

Positive thoughts kills.

YADDA; went for lunch with Fionn at
MarinaSq. Shared problems &possible
reasons for those problems.

Went to the Esplanade.
Makes me feel much much better!
&more inspired to continue with my art.

But Im simply exhausted!

\timmy -i miss the pillow- says:
u look like a sec 1
!/ Missing link on the brink of destruction says:
Yaaa I know! Everyone says that.

Oh LittleTimmy went to play! Hahaha,
Ogay, I just like the name Timmy.
MAYBE NOT THE PERSON CAUSE
HE KEEPS SUANING THE SUANS OUT
OF ME! -_-"

AMANDA PEREZ -"I Still Love You"

Tell me why, what did I do?
Just the other night the love of my life went away
&I cant sleep at night its driving me crazy
Why cant you see that I miss looking in your eyes
Why cant you see that I miss kissing you good night?

I still love you
Please take my hand &let me help you,
help you to understand that aint nobody
ever gonna love you like i do
& aint nobody ever gonna do the things i do for you,
cause I still love you

Tell me why when i call you at home
You say your with your friends, don't call no more
Why cant you see the love staring you right in your face
Why cant you see that
i don't want no one to come and take your place

This is something that i cant understand
Why couldn't you just be my man
&all the love that we given
I don't want it to be wasted
Why can't you face it

Oof, yeah, I still love you, why cant you just face it?
Ohwells, why am I so dao, you ask.
All this is what you started, why ask me?
I only share my problems with people who care,
not people who pangseh-ed me for selfish desires.

Get that fact right. ONLY PEOPLE WHO CARE.

Abby, be strong.

Ta-

Peace be with you.

2006-09-28T16:54:00.000+08:00

Ive got one confession, a love deprivation
Ive got a jet black heart, Its all fucked up and its falling apart

Isn't MsLow superlame? She drew that for Seiriol, when Seiriol asked how
to draw a Starfish. -_-"
Franky, Abby &IdayuHoney. (:

Hahaha, Mings! Dont kill me yeaah!

"CLOSE YOUR MOUTH!" (: Nazzy Wuzzy &I.
Ariel &I! Thats Ariel being the blind person wearing specs!

Mings &Franky! Haha! (:

FRAAAAANKY!
Fionn. (:

Esplanade with Fionn was nerve-calming;
There's just a little something in that place,
it works magic on me.

We found a little quiet place &sat ourselves down;
then we started sharing our problems.
She understands, sad to say, she's the only one that
understands.

Thanks for everything. (:
Im glad to have someone like you to share
my problems with. &someone who
doesnt give up on me.

IdayuHon, Im sorry for scaring you yesterday.
Thanks for putting up with my pouts, tears &sobs.
I love you dear. (:

Daryl! Smexy! Hello Pa! I just really wna
thank you for everything you've done for
me this past months. You're my SUGARDADDY,
no no, not a single daddy that consumed loads of
sugar! But a sugarhearted daddy! (:

I love you, cause you promised me that you'll
see my through this mess &will never give up. (:
Thanks sugar daddy! (:

Ah girl loves you.

Reached school at 8.50am.
Power aye?

School doesnt really excite me anymore,
I used to enjoy school.
Kind of sad, but Im losing everything I love.
Friends, Things, People &yadda. ):
Seems like I cant do anything about it either.

Okay anyways took loads of photos,
Ariel &i had loads of fun acting as blind people,
yeah pretty retarded, tied our belts covering our eyes
&wore specs over it &walked around class.

Haha, VanessaChew laughed like a crazynehpok!

Helped Mings &Franky take loads of photos as well,
super hilarious, -above. (:

Art was superslack, anyways, Ive decided what to
draw for my finalyear paper, mmhmm, looks like
I have to start working on robots.

My life is getting way boring, what am I suppose to do?
I've lost pretty much everything.
Academic excellence doesnt please me,
Cash increment doesnt please me,
New products doesnt please me.

AbigailWong, whats up with you now?

Im sorry, I myself dont know.

Life's horrible, accept the fact Abby.

So Ayuthepu is with Adnan, according to FarahTan.
Ogay, Im jealous. Oh great!
Everyone else seems happy, why do I have to
be the odd one out? ):

Papa Roach -Done with you

I count the days that we have spent apart
Ive got a bad liver and a broken heart
There's no salvation in the comfort of you (comfort of you)
&I finally realize you're tearing me apart

So help me, save me
Tell me that the end is near
Help me, save me
Tell me that the end is here
I am done with you

You've made my life completely miserable
You drove me to the edge, you've caused me all this pain
But I always love you cause you're oh so special (oh so special)
I'm broken and I'm alone and I cannot maintain

I think he got into a fight, sigh, I wish you'd stop
getting yourself into fights laaa, tay.

Off to do art, Ta-

Peace be with you;

2006-09-27T16:04:00.000+08:00

Now boy, I know, we've had our share of ups and downs
But we can make it, if we try.

I realized something during Sec4 farewell mass today;
We're all Judas &Pauls. Dont you realize?

God knows that we'll sin, just like he knew dont-know-who
was gna deny him like 3times or smth. (sorry; i dont
check out the bible often)

Yet he forgives us graciously.
So let us all sing "LOVING &FORGIVING
ARE YOU O LORD! ..."

Yah, anyways, best part of my day was mass,
even though I almost died of heat in the hall.
Father Simon ROCKS! (:

He's the one thats behind me all the time,
I notice, each time I feel as if Im gna breakdown,
THERE'S MASS! Surprisingly coincidental.

&the verses never fail to lift my spirit!
&I thank God for Father Simon Pierra.

Ogay, now, Im really off to the Esplanade;
Somehow I wish I'd see you there;
Impossible.

2006-09-27T15:16:00.000+08:00

All those sleepness nights;
Explaining everything.

PUT YOUR HANDS UP! PUT YOUR HANDS UP!
Its Rustyboy's birthday!
&Mama whipped up a yummy drumstick for
his dinner later on; along with a red packet
containing for bucks!

Its also DENISE'S birthday!
Oh my dearest cousin; hoped you had
a sexyful birthday! Wish I was all the
way in Perth with you. (:

Doesnt Rusty look possessed? -below?
DONT EVERYONE JUST HATE NUTS?
PEANUTS! MACANUTS! HAZELNUTS! ALMONDNUTS!

Fuck nuts in the ass la.

Im starting to hate my social life;
What the heck am I doing?
Why am I avoiding everyone?

There's this little something about trust,
"Once bitten, twice shy"

&WHERE THE EFF IS DARYL LEE WHEN I REALLY
NEED HIM HURRRR!!

School today = horrible.
I hate the fact that I'm cutting myself from reality.
I hate the fact that I'm avoiding them.

I just dont feel the same;
everywhere I go, I throw an effing blackface.

This is reality, face it, troubles won't melt away like lemondrops.

Yaah, fuck this optismistic crappos, its not working.
Its not working &i feel like crying;

I love FionnChuah. (:
She's like a soul mate or something;
Thanks sweetheart.

&you're right; blogs arent private,
you cant scream &shout &yadda without
people bothering you.

Anyways, I need a cry session;
Hello Esplanade! Yeah, you'll know where
to find me.

Dont blog this, dont blog that;
Whatever happened to human rights?
Whatever happened to that little thing called PRIVACY?
Sigh.

I miss our cuddles; I miss your kisses.

Never coming back; Never.

Peace be with you.

2006-09-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

And what do I get to get me through these sleepless nights?
And what do I have to hold when no one there to hold me tight.

EVERYBODY SING A SONG, DOODAAA DOODAA! (:

Gee, I dont know why, but I felt super moody in school today.
I was throwing tantrums &avoiding my friends, but somehow,
I got over it after recess but then I got back to being
moody after the paper &it lasted until uhhh... I reached town.

Goodbye English! Goodbye!

Joy was super encouraging for Sova!
She was like "EH YOU ALSO NEVER STUDY AH?
COME ON! HIGH5! WE ALL ALSO NEVER LEARN!" -_-"

I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO THE LAST QUESTION
FOR SOVAAAA! Oh my motherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

MissTiru says we can join dragonboating. (:
CHEEEEEEERS! (((((:

Yaddayadda, went to town with Fionn for lunch.
Saw his friend again, -_-", two days in a row?,
you've sooo gotta be kidding me.

Yaya, that fella &his dreamy smile that only
Gina would fall for.

QUIT STARING LAAA CAN?

&if I jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge,
Tell me would you still follow me
&if I made you mad today,
Tell me would you love me tomorrow? Please

Or would you say that you dont care,
&then leave me standing here
Like the fool who is drowning in dispair
& screamin’
Oh no I cant let you go,
My ~~little girl~~ baby boy
Because youre holding up my world,
So I need you

Your imitation of my walk
&the perfect way you talk
It’s just a couple of the million things
that I love about you
So I need you

Yeah so anyways, bought Where Rainbows End! (:
Books make me happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
You make me happier, just not right now. ):
You're still my Superfriend &my superman.

Ogay so I'll just leave you with a song;
&i'll retire to my privte blog.

3 DOORS DOWN- When Im Gone.

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away
Or maybe I'm just blind x2

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
&love me when I'm gone

Everything I am
&everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone
When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends

Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

Or maybe I'm just blind

Love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone

Peace be with you.

2006-09-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the club of broken hearts
Where a thousand lonely souls have passed

FRANKY! FRANCESCA! (:

My dance partner &I. -beams!
Hello Mings! (:
SAMSOON! :D:D:D:D!
I can be neat!
&also horrendously messy aye?
GRIN &BEAM! FROWN &DROWN!
Yeaaaah; for you.
Random Fandom Bandom Wandom!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! She's adorable!

Standing here making tracks without you
I wonder if our paths will ever meet again
I still think of you that way
You're in my hearts always

She hated the feeling that she had no reason to wake
up; she hated the feelings she had when she did wake
up. She hated the feeling of having no excitement
to look forward to. She missed the feeling of being
loved, she missed his touches, his hugs, his words
of advice; his words of love.

School was pretty darn slack.
It rained in the middle of morning assembly!
Oof! Shiokness!

Slept during Cme, slept during Social.
Concentrated during English! Cause we're
having Paper1 &2 tomorrow.

Sitting at the back sucks cause there's hardly
an circulation going on, which bastard located
all the fans in the center of the class? On the
other hand, its pretty neat, cause you get all
the privacy in the world. (:

Did the journals for Accounts; arrrgh!
Im so effing dead! I cant remember any
of the bull we've learn't! Sooo...

EMERGENCY CALL 911!

-_-"

Yeaaaah Anyways FRANKY is back from Obs! (:
She &her wacky specs! :D:D:D!

I love Franky! I love Franky! I love Franky! :D:D!
-BEAAAAAAAAAAAAMS!

omgzx omgzx omgzx!
I just went to see the vid Joanne did for Steven.
-MELTS!

Those two look sooooooooo adorable together!

Yeaaah whatever Abby!

Had lunch with Minghui, Mings &Bel.
Saw an unexpected someone.
Reminded me of Him.

Argh fuck, whatever.

Like Daryl says; if he doesnt give a fuck about
you, then dont give a fuck about him too.

EASIER SAID THAN DONE!

&yeah SMEXY IS ALWAYS RIGHT HURR!
Daryl smsing me from CCCCHINAAA!
Oh the friends I have! Just wna hug them to bits!

Duncan James -Frequency (Reminds me of Physics aye?)

Looking at you, looking at me
The signs you give out are so hard to read
When I get close you pull away from me
We used to talk on the phone
Now when I call
There's nobody home
Drifting like a satellite So far away

How can I tune into your frequency
Don't you let the signal die on me
I'm reaching out for you to come back to me oh
Come on let's talk about it
Must be a way around it
Don't disconnect from me

Peace be with you.

2006-09-24T19:34:00.000+08:00

If you marry me, would you bury me?
Would you carry me to the end?

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes &I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain,
every time I hear your name

So today sucked.

Andre rang &woke me up at TEN O CLOCK!
How bloody early is that man?

Yaddayadda! Had to reserve a seat for him
But that basket didnt reach church until
12plus? -_-"

(PS. He only lives bloody next door?)

&yeah, I realized, I dont hate God.
Infact, I love him so much that it hurts
pretending to detest him.

Yeah, Im pissed. Pissed at the fact he took
away things &people that I highly loved &adored.
But God didnt promise me a good life did he?

I came to realize this during Worship.
I guess Worship is the only connection I have
with God. Sometimes the lyrics speak so loudly
to me, almost as if its leading the way.

&thank VanessaChew for sending me an email.

Here's a rip off:
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,
sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day,
comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Samoo &i were suppose to go to the gardens today,
so I can snap some shots &call it a day!
But that smellypoo had cell until 3.

So followed Mom &all for lunch!
It wasnt all that bad! AH MONG came! :D:D!
EHEHH! ELLEN! :), wells, had a good talk
with her yeah?

Yeah lunch was interesting, managed
to get some things off my mind for abit.

Its amazing how self destructive I am.
HELLO ITE. -waves!

Daryl was right; you seriously dont give a fuck.
I never thought of you as such a heartless person.
Never the jealous sort? Oh please, I was &is erupting
with loads &tonnes of jealousy.

Go find your hazelnut la.

Peace be with you.

2006-09-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

Wishful thinking, patience shrinking, bliss is far away.

YOU KNOW WHAT?
I CANT EFFING TAKE IT ANYMORE!

You bloody well say that you're always there
behind, to hold on when I fall.

But fuck, thats a bloody lie, you were never there.
Whenever I turn around, you arent there.
Whenever I fall hard on my knees, you arent there.

Yes, I admit, I am like this, full of vulgarities,
full of hatred, full or darkness.

When I met you, i got it out of my system,
as the saying goes "Bad habits die hard",
you left me &it all came back, it all just fucking well
came back.

Im gna have papers on tuesday, which Im
pretty fucking sure, im gna fail.
I cant absorb anything anymore.

I've tried everything.

I've gave up on my religion.
I dont believe in anything anymore.

I've tried hating you. -FAILED.
I've tried piling myself with work &studies. -FAILED.
I've tried alcohol (stole it from daddy's stash),

oh that fucking failed,
allergies acted up, struggled in the wees
hours of the morning, lying on the bed,
constantly gasping for air.

I've already lost a fair bit of friends,
thanks to who I am right now.

Tell me what else do you want me to do?
Im just so tired, I really am.

Im tired of looking on the bright side,
There isnt a fucking bright side anyway.
WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO LOOK AT
THE SUN LIKE A DUMBFUCK?

Besides the sun, there isnt any other "bright side"
Wells, unless you on the light la.

I just couldnt keep it in anymore.
No one understands.

A round of applause for you.
You perfectly ruined everything.
Thank you ah, may that God you believe
in bless you ah. (fecks)

This song, spells out everything I feel.
Bold words are what I really feel like telling you.
You stopped listening, when I needed you the most.
I was all by myself.

When I cry, nobody knows,
cause I'd run into the washroom.
The promises I made, I kept.
The promises you made, you broke.

"Say Goodbye" -Ashlee Simpson

You don't know me
Like you knew me
You stopped listening
The moment that I needed you the most
You can't see me
Like you saw me
Truth comes easy
But it's hard for you to pull me from the ground

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and I'd still need to say goodbye

Maybe you don't love me
Like I love you baby
Cause the broken in you doesn't make me run
There is beauty
In the dark side
I'm not frightened
Without it I could never feel the sun

Nothing will ever change no matter what you say
I'm still gonna be the same
The harder we try, the harder that we fight, can't get it right

Say goodbye.. Say goodbye.. Say goodbye

NO PEACE.

[/edit]
Im sorry, I just couldnt take it.

2006-09-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

As the days go by, I am asking why did you leave
You left me alone and then you walked out on me
Thinking of days, thinking of ways,
thinking of things to you that I should say
I wanna be with you and that's the only way

Im disappointed in you. Just really disappointed.
More about it, in my sweet o' private blog.

Im suppose to try to be an optimistic googa here,
so today was awesome. (yeah right)

Woke up at 11? &said "OH FUCK! IM LATE!"
Cause I was suppose to meet Fionn at 11.30.
Jumped out of bed, tumbled on the comforter &
hit the showers.

Got cheated by the bus driver.
He made me pay adult fare &i got super pissed!

DO I LOOK LIKE AN EFFING ADULT TO YOU?

Fucktard. He's just out for the money!
ITS ONLY A BLOODY 35CENTS MORE!
WHATS THE BIG EFFING DEAL!

Then used a train to tpy, was HALF AN HOUR late.
Yeah, my apologies. :)

Headed to school! Minghui was there! Haha!
PARTYING with the guides! Eating yummy pasta!

Anyhow, collected the remaining books from the
locker &we walked back to tpy!
Contemplated on what to have for lunch,
used a train down to novena &we had burgerking.

Fionn came over for awhile!

Was suppose to meet Naz to go check out
the dragonboat thingy thing, but we didnt
in the end!

Just wanted to confirm with MsTiru if we
could take it up as a second cca. Looking at
my Arts score, I think I seriously need another.

Ohwells, spent the whole day reading up
"Wish upon a star" mmhm! Gna get another
novel soon.

YADDAYADDA. I lead a boring life, esp when
I try to be optimistic. -_-"

I just have so much bull to shit in my privateblog.
So ta-

Im still really disappointed in you.
Maybe Daryl is right, you probably dont give
a fuck anymore.

Stupid feckers of the world.

Im hoping some giantic ugly alien from Mars
spurts some of his saliva on the earth &engulfs it.
YAY! Then we all dont have to live anymore.
Well, at least I won't have to. -beams! (fucker)

God, you made me this way, dont blame me.

Dont leave me. -All American Rejects

Will you stay or will you walk?
will you let go?
Leave me all alone
I'm giving you one more chance
To make things last
Ring around the roses then she'll stay

Leave me once, Leave me twice
Kiss good-bye that will suffice
When you go away, don't look back

Leave me once and i'll be fine
Leave me twice i'll make you mine
Just one more chance to make it once again
Don't say good-bye, just dry your eyes
A tear for everything that I did wrong
Don't say goodbye, just dry your eyes
Listen now just try and see me please don't leave me now.

Peace be with you.

2006-09-22T19:21:00.000+08:00

I dont wanna run away, baby youre the one I need tonight,
No promises.Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your armsHere tonight.

I LOVE AISHAH! (: &i think she has the nicest eyes ever!

So a couple of people has came up to me &said
"God leads you to it &takes you through it"

IM LIKE "YAAADA!"

Some people talk as if everything would be fine after
a snap of the fingers.

Complete bulleffingshit, my friends, its completely wrong!
Hate to say this but, I've given up, yeah yeah I believe
in God &all but as the saying goes "Once bitten, twice shy".

I've learnt not to trust anyone! &everyone!
I've learnt to watch my back, incase anyone backstabs!
I've learnt not easily believe people.

WHYYYYYY? Cause this sucks &its already superbad
&all that yaddapoo poo, so i dont wna ever feel
what im feeling ever again.

AS SIMPLE AS THAT!

So school today was really exhausting! ))):
Havent been able to sleep well since that
unfortunate incident. It sucks majorly!

Time flies, its been months since that UNFORTUNATE
INCIDENT! Soon it'd be a year. Sucks hurr?

Not bad, not bad.

I can forsee myself having a lonesome Valentines' day.
As usual, for the past three years.
ARGH! FUGG! UNFAIR!

Had physics make-up lesson after school,
It wasnt all THAT bad laaah!

DIDNT SEE THAT SILLYSMURF AGAIN!

Heading to school with Fionn tomorrow,
to collect the remaining books from our lockers.

Naz &I are planning on joining dragonboating.
So yeah, most probably gna check the thing
out tomorrow as well. Oh yay!

Im off to blog in my private blog. :)

ONLY DARYL &AYUTHEPU KNOWS THE LINK.
Dont try bribing though.

I miss you so bad.
I just wish I could tell you without you getting mad.

Ah fuck laa! I cant even open up in my own blog,
I cant even blog what I feel cause that rotten slut
of yours would run up to you &tell you "what the
fuck is abigail's problem?"

I hate her, she ruins people's life.
Sometimes, I hope she'd ruin her own life, herself.
Ogay, that was mean, but SHEESE! Serve her right la!

Adam Sandler -Grow old with you.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
(aahh! you so big! I dont think I can even lift you up.)

All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you. Feed you.
Even let ya hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the ~~man~~ one who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

Peace be with you.

2006-09-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

I'm just so tired, wont you sing me to sleep
&fly through my dreams, so i can hitch a ride with you tonight

&how Im trying hard to pick myself up; but I'm in a loss
about what else to do. How it pisses me off when everyone
says them is a healer when at the same time they also
say absence makes the heart grow fonder, which really
confuses me, because that means that the longer he's
gone the more I want him. ))))))))))))))):

Take a slow walk down memory lane.
&I can't help but start singing lines from all our favorite songs
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone.

She had lived for him; now he was gone.
She lives for his messages.
Everything was about him.

I still have that laopok burger king crown you gave me. :)
Looking at it reminds me of the past, the happy past.

You made me parade around town with that sillycrown.
&you cooked up the excuse "You're the queen of my heart,
so you must wear it" Remember?

I dont think you do. Ohwells.

Got kicked out of accounts class.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
(ogay ogay abby, not funny at all)

Seiriol &i were standing outside discussing
about the breast thingy! Oh my mama, its
so gross please, WORMS IN BREASTS DONT
GO WELL TOGETHER OGAY OGAY!

Actually, worms dont go well with anything. -_-"

Went to find Mr Tan today! :D:D:D:D!
He's superdarncute I sumpah!
&HE'S MY HERO.
awwwwwwwwwwww!

Art was FUNFUNFUNFUNFUN!
We spent like 2periods running all over
the school &snapping photos all over!

~~PORNO~~PHOTOGRAPHY IS FUNNNNN! :D:D!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :D!

Ms Kuan let us off! So we didnt have bio!
Headed to the canteen for lunch &then went
up to the holding room for oral.

Screwed it super badly.

THANKYOU ARIEL TAN!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHH!

I heard from the rest that she pissed Mr Armstrong off!

Mr Armstrong: what are the problems you would avoid in
your party?

Ariel: In my party, there arent problems!

HAHAHAHAHA! Hilarious aye?

ALL HAIL ARIEL ASHLEY TAN! :D:D!

Went down town with Fionn, headed to buy some
present thingy &then went to the library.
Finished up geog notes. &had a choco milkshake!

Then researched for art! Couldnt find no shit!
Lousypok!

SAW BIGJEREMY! THE CAMP INSTRUCTOR!

OH I MISS CAMP! )))):

Didnt see Smurf today! ):
HAHAH! I like him cause he's short!
Just like me! :D:D!

Walked home with Cheng! HAHAH!
We were talking about "Million dollar smiles"

That pangsai said that I should smile more,
cause thanks to the costs of the metal elements
present in my mouth, my smile is worth about
thousand over dollars.

So YES! I have a thousand-over-dollars smile.
&so does everyone who have metal elements
stuck on your teeth! :D:D!

Cheers to brace-faces!

Cheng's song! -CHAIN HANG LOW!

Do your chain hang low
Do it wobble to the flo
Do it shine in the light
Is it platinum, Is it gold
Could you throw it over ya shoulda
If ya hot, it make ya cold
Do your chain hang low

Beyonce -Deja vu

Baby seems like everywhere I go
I see you, from your eyes, your smile
It's like I breathe you, helplessly I reminise
Don't want to compare nobody to you

Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

I REALLY DONT WANT ANY SUBSTITUTE.

2006-09-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

I don't have plans and schemes
&I don't have hopes and dreams.

Just as soon as she was getting round to picking up
the pieces of her shattered life, she dropped them
all again &sent them scattering.

Wells, maybe I did have plans, schemes, hopes &dreams
before, but come to think of it, not anymore.
Im afraid, horribly afraid, I said this once
&i'd say it again:

"Sad excuses, false hopes high."

Thats my line &im gna stick to it.

Ogay anyways, I have an extremely bugging question
&i hope i could get an answer asap, so yeah,
the tagboard is on the right, leave your opinions
&i'll get back to you.

The question is:

Do people really want to know how you feel when
they ask "How are you?"? Or are they just trying
to be polite?

&I also have a statement to make,
COULD YOU HAPPY NUTPIES GO FECK ELSEWHERE!
CANT YOU BE MORE SENSITIVE TO OTHERS!

Others ahem, meaning me la. (annoyed)

&quit asking "whatever happened to the old abby",
&saying "aww i want the old you back"

WELLS, my answer is, NOT IN THIS LIFETIME.
So if you dont like me, then feck far far away.
Thankyou.

&here's to those people who are gna feck
far far away.

"Hate me today, hate me tomorrow,
hate me so you can finally see whats good for you."

Poots, life just cant be a bigger slut. I swear.

1. I have superhuge eye bags.
WHY? Thanks to lack of sleep, its hard to try
sleeping with blasting music. (Blasting the radio
helps me get things off my mind, however,
I cant get the effing sleep I need. -_-")

I love wednesdays.
WHY? Cause 24th of May plays a
significant role. (Fugg, doubt you even
bother to give a damn right?) &also because
school ends at 1.50 ONLY on weds! Plus,
we have the slackest of the slackest periods
ever. &EXCLUSIVELY ON WEDS!

POOTS! ENOUGH OF MY SILLYRUBBISHYTHINGYS!

Regarding school today?

ONE WORD! IT SUCKED!
Ogay, so I guess, its actually TWO WORDS!

But yadda yadda bam bam, same meaning hurr.

Met that superhilarious guy at tpy again.
SUCH A SMURF! I LOST MY MONEY
YET HE KEPT PESTERING ME TO DONATE!
PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT!

Sillysmurf! Im gna report to MrTan tomorrow.
&if he manages to find that bitch who has
been stealing money, i sumpah i'll make a
donation of 5effingbucks to him!

OH MRTAN! MY HERO! HAHAH!
I hope he does a good job in finding out
who stole the cashy washy!

& & &i feel like crying. ):
Today was the last LAST effing LAAAAST day of
our dance module thingy thingy! ))))))))):

I'd miss that fat teacher. ): She's highly adorable sometimes.
mmhmm, Jive was sooooooo darn funnn &Samba (spellcheck?)
was complicated yet satisfying when you finally
learn all the steps!

&I'LL MISS DANCING WITH MY DANCING QUEEN!
NG XIU LIN! :D:D:D:D!

Doubt she'll read it but I HAVE A PLAN! &when
abby has a plan, its a BRILLIANT plan to make
sure Xiu reads this.

-EVIL LAUGHTER!

Anyhow, XIU! I know I know, Ive been
an annoying pest! Often distracting you
from the dance &FOREVER LAUGHING
LIKE A MAD COW! &also falling straight on my
butt all the time, but dancing with you was fun. :D

Sad to say, we wont be doing dance next year,
but if we do, i'll definately force you to partner me.

YAYY! YAAAAAAAAAYYY! :D:D:D:D:D:D!

Thanks for having sooo much patience with me.
YOU'RE MY DANCING QUEEN! YOU MOFO! :D!

-scruffles your hair. (i know you hate it.)

OH MY SUNSHINE! MY ONLY SUNSHINE!
YOU MAKE ME HAPPY WHEN SKIES ARE GREY!
YOU NEVER KNOW DEAR, HOW MUCH I NEED YOU.
PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAY.

In this case, you're my sunshine.
You're gone &everything is dark.
&Im awfully scared &alone.

STACIE ORRICO.
I promise.

Another day all alone again
Someone please love me
Another game; another broken heart
Why do I do this to myself
I could look and try to find someone
Who won't leave me lonely
But then I found I didn't need to search
Cause You were the one and You came to me
You fought for my heart and You have won it
You're taking me over and I like that
I tried other love but couldn't feel it
I'm so glad You found me.

2006-09-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

I've gone through pain, every day &night.
I feel my mind is going insane, something I cant fight.

Ogay, so I havent been blogging.

One things for sure, Im seriously dead tired.
Recently, I've piled myself with tonnes of activities,
well, hopefully everything &anything that can
remove you from my mind temporarily.

Don't want to have you hangin,
Around me like a leech.
I think you're just a problem,
So stay the hell away from me because I don't believe in you.
And I wanna sit here all my life alone.
This may sound a little rough,
Don't wanna fall in love.
Don't need security.

Oofs, I wish I could think of you as a pest,
I wish I could ask you to stay the hell away
from me, I wish I could say I dont believe in you
anymore, I wish I could say all these things.

But I cant.

Whatever Abby, whatever.
Keep your bullshit to yourself.
Nobody effing gives a damn about you,
well, at least not anymore.

Here's a rough summary:

I've been burying myself with bio, I hate to admit it,
but I cant seem to remember a single piece
of shit that goes on in xylem vessels &all that bull.

Have been having study dates with Fionn pretty
often. We'd head down to Orchard Library,
indulge in some hot choc &a vanilla frappe &just
hit the books. mmhmm.

Recently, I seem to be able to relate to Fionn,
wells, I guess we're going through the same
roller coaster ride. Only difference is, mine
seems to be never ending.

Just last saturday, both of us used a train all
the way to Changi Airport. Indeed, Popeyes chicken
reminded me of the past. We sat there for
a couple of hours &all then we headed to Swensens,
pigged out on ice cream. YUMMOS. :)

I only eat loads of ice cream when Im upset.
&i've already consumed approx two tubs all by
myself last week.

Fattening or what?

I guess its alright bottling everything up,
I just dont know how long I can hold it in.
Dont worry, I wont burden you anymore.

24th is coming, gee, what can I say?
Fatass Farah, I hope you would have a great
time with skinnypig. I'll be fine, at least I hope I will.

Why does it hurt.

"Whatever is treasure to you, let it go"
Andy, easier said then done aye?

&I sculpt my life for your acceptance.
Peace be with you.

2006-09-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

Falling apart.

EARTH TO DARYL! EARTH TO DARYL!
Yes, we all know you've been pangsehed!
&I LOVE YOUR MSG TONE LAAA

"euuu hab no money! HAHA! 1dollar go to da gahmen!"

Ogay, I suppose two tuitions in a day wasnt
such a good idea hur!

Chinese tuition was supertiring!
Baby.J's fur made my nose run away. )))):
I was sneezing the lesson away!

Used the comp awhile then Bel came!
We rushed to do accounts, then yeahhh!
Had accounts tution.

Oh darn, my neck aches.
Oh baby. ):

Gna watch My lovely samsoon now.
Bye dearests.

2006-09-06T10:22:00.001+08:00

There just some things love brings
When you learn that its all a lie you cry.

She found herself immobile for hours in the living
room, reliving every single memory that she
&____ had shared. She spent most of that thinking
about every arguement they'd had, wishing she
could take them backevery horrible world
she had ever said to him. She prayed that he
had known her words had only been spoken in anger
and that they had not reflected her true feelings.

I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I'm losing control of my heart

Yesterday, met Fran at Novena!
Was HALF AN HOUR late!
SORRRRRY FRANKYYY! ))):

Then we used a train down to Orchard,
met Bel &Mings! We walked to Lido,
but there wasnt any good shows.

Headed to Cine, no good shows going on
either, so what the heck! We settled for MonsterHouse.
Franky didnt wna watch, so she left.

The movie was pretty gay!
HAHAHAHAHAHHH!

Came home at 6.30 &then my family &i
went to United Sq for SUSHI! :D:D!

TWO SOFT SHALL CRAB HANDROLLS FOR ME! :D!
YUMMMMMMMMOS!

Reached home, showered &watched "My Lovely Samsoon!"
OH MY GOSH! ZHENXIAN! MY NEW BOYFR!
Im soooo gna migrate to Korea right now &
marry the shit out of him..

He's uhmm 184cm! &24years old.
HAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAAAH!
Its already quite depressing when I stand next
to Leonard! IMAGINE ME NEXT TO ME!

-FAINTS

omgzxzx! BABY.J came back! :D:D!
&Andre is going crazy!

His sms
"aww.. i dont know y but i just feel shes part
of us now. =) and it would be great to see her
grow up"

Freaking adorable lah you bald freak!

Im just annoyed. &PS. I LOVE YOU, seems
to be telling my life story of somesort.

ANYWAYS, IM OFF TO START A PRIVATE BLOG!
For Ayuthepu &i. :D

&here's Daniel Bedingfield
"If you're not the one"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance aim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today

‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Peace be with you.

SAMOO IS AN EVIL MONSTER!
Its a mixed breed yeah?
A samuelyeo &a cow gives you SAMOO!

HEH! HELLO SAMUEL! :D
Dont scold me! Oh pretty please dont scold me?!

☆ abby; High&lifted up says:
samoo what you doingg
[sAm] says:
gg see my fren blog
☆ abby; High&lifted up says:
wahh never see mine!
[sAm] says:
fine fine
[sAm] says:
later i see urs happy?
[sAm] says:
gime ur link

2006-09-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you

AHHHHHHHHHHH!
You know what, I cant take it anymore.

Im gna open a private blog.

Abby can be an optimistic moronigga here.
&a pessimistic (spellcheck? CHECK ME CHECK ME!) bitch there.

2006-09-05T11:12:00.000+08:00

We could be perfect one last night
And die like star-crossed lovers when we fight.

Woke up the next morning still fully dressed and
lying on her bed. She could feel herself slipping
into her old habits again. All her positive thoughts
of the past few days were melting away bit by bit.
It was so bloody tiring trying to be happy all the
time and she just didnt have the energy anymore.

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to believe

TODAY'S MOFO THEME: MCR.

QUICKTARDED REPLIES!

Ayuthepu: Why are you feeling toot up?
Whenever you're feeling toot up, please
give me a call on my mobile ogay! &yes!
THATS OUR SONG! Cant wait for school
to reopen! Then we can sing it all the way to
the interchange!

Cheers to that!

SMEXY: DARYL! dunzx type liddatzx worzx!
Yeaaaah! The headlines: Abby's #1 fan turns pajiao!

Audd/SMEXYTARDED!: Hey Darling! Im really
happy for you &Benedict solution ogaay!
&thanks for that tiny post for me in your blog!
Just be happy! &I'll be happy too.
You're a princess. :D

Niggas Ass: HAHAHA! WHICH IDIOT ARE YOU!
&whoever you are, I missed half an hour of
My Lovely Samsoon yesterday! ):

Cherm: CHERMAINE? OHmother! (:

--------------------------------------------------
Everyone is upset now. ):

FRAN! MATT! FIONN! BEN! (Not benedict solution Audd!)
CHEER UP &GIVE ME YOUR PRETTIEST SMILE!

I'll call each &everyone of you personally &be
your mediator! &just pray that everything will
turn out fine.

I've felt the pain, its horrible. &I dont want
anyone else, especially MY FRIENDS to have to
go through the same great deal of pain.

SO CUPID'S EVIL TWIN, (who's name is probably) STUPID!,
stop going around &breaking peoples' hearts ogay.

(Oh my lovely vivid imagination.)

Ah! Yes!
I missed half of "MY LOVELY SAMSOON!".
&why? Cause I was busy talking to Daryl (SMEXY!)
&Matheus! Ohwells.

Daryl &I plan to take revenge on that stupid
stingray which caused Steve Irwin's death! ):
He's the reason why I still watch Kids central.
(HAHAHA! Okay, fine Im lying, I watch Teen Titans too)

AH YES! &OUR EVIL PLAN IS ...
-drumrolls.

(Daryl is DOCTOR EVIL! &Im Mini HIM! HAHAHA!)

-EVIL LAUGHTER
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!

We plan to capture all the Stingrays in
that bloody sea &bbq all of them &eat
them all up! YUMMOS!

Then, we'll shit it all out, our waste will be
taken to the New Water plant &distributed
all around Singapore! So then, Singapore in
otherwords, will be consuming our waste &our
waste happens to be made out of Stingrays!

SO MUAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHA!
We would then have succeeded in seeking
revenge for that HAMSUM aussie dude, Steve Irwin.

Arent we such loyal fans of CROC FILES! (:

Oh I miss you.

ANYWAYS! I wanted to go back to school
today to paint my Escalate Proj BUT!
no one was going back, so fugggggggg it!

So anyways, might be going out with Mings &all
later. HAHAHA. Gna meet Ernest &Kl.

So til then.

HERE'S TO EVERYONE WHO'S
FEELING AS HORRIBLE AS ME!
You're not alone. Just remember that.

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything On our own
We don't need Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Peace be with you.

2006-09-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

I wish i could carry your smile in my heart.
For times when my life seems so low.

Smiling weakly. He would know exactly how she was
feeling, he would know exactly what to say and exactly
what to do. He would give her one of his famous hugs
and all her problems would melt away. She grabbed
a pillow from her bed and hugged it tight. She couldn't
remember the last time she had hugged someone,
really hugged someone. And the depressing thing was
that she couldnt imagine ever embracing anyone
the same way again.

I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, i can't give anymore

I believe, I almost died this morning.
I've never had cramps so bad before,
actually, I hardly ever suffered cramps.

I woke up, thinking that it was just some
silly ache &so, signed into Msn &oh mother!
The intensity of the pain shot sky high &
i had to practically crawl back to my room.

Begged Elia to get me a cup of water,
which NEVER came! -_-", I stumbled to the
kitchen just to retrieve the water,
RANNN to the bathroom &puked a whole
lot of yellowish slime.

Trust me, it was gross.

Celeste signed out of msn for me, so
Im really sorry if there were any convos
I didnt get the chance to reply to.

Slept for about one &a half hours?
&was awaken by Bel's sms.

SCREWED! SIMPLY SCREWED!
She told me not to be late but ....
I was supereffing late.

SORRY BEL! ):

Anyways, the darn thing was canceled.
So I rushed for NOTHINGG!
Mother!!! ):

Westlife's MyLove has been stuck in my head!
Ive been singing it like some mad bitch!

HAHAHAHAHAAAAHHHHAHAH!
Oh my mother!! The funniest thing just happened!
Some weird guy named Bob just asked me
"will you be my girl" &played some heartt hing!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
&I ran all over the room screaming like some
brainfried woman! How disgusting!

Anyways YESYESYESYES!
WESTLIFE! MY LOVE! HOOHOO!

Ayuthepu! WE'RE BOTH INSANELY IN LOVE
WITH THAT SONG RIGHTOS!

Yeah, I still recall the last day of school!
Ayuthepu &i were walking to the interchange
singing our lungs out! :D:D!

-MELTS!!

"To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of"

Its our song! Pu! ITS OUR SONG! :D:D!
&Im gna add it in my STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART!
section of my profile!

Oh yesyes! Back to talking about my darn day.
It was pretty dull as compared to others.
mmhmm, lets see, ah yes, you didnt call. ):

&uhhh Mings joined Bel &i at town.
Made fun of foreign students!
THAT MUO GU TOU!(mushroom head!)

That's Why (You Go Away)

Baby wont you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I dont wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

Youre the one who set it up now youre the one to make it stop
Im the one whos feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

I wont forget the way youre kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But Im not the ~~man~~ girl your heart is missing
Thats why you go away i know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

I wont forget the way youre kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But Im not the ~~man~~ girl your heart is missing
Thats why you go away i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Dont know which way to go
There aint so much to say now between us
There aint so much for you
There aint so much for me anymore

&so over all, I was in an awful mood.
Cause I didnt get to talk to you today
&cause of the moronic cramps I had to suffer.

See the first paragraph in BOLD! above?
I knew, that if you were there, next to me
while I was having those killer cramps,
you'd give me a hug, you'd pray that the pain
goes away, you'd pat me to sleep.

You'd do exactly what you did before when
I had that sickening fever during the June Hols.
But now, Im all alone.

Ogay Abby, BE OPTIMISTIC.
BE A MORONIGGA!

Sheese, I just simply detest her!
So why not, do a silly dance, blow me a kiss, end it
off with a fart, turn around &lets all hope the
wind is nice enough to take her to Iraq or something?
Yeah?

Yow, you made me cry.
Why are you like the others?
Telling me Ive changed, telling me that Ive got
to pick myself up once again, thats not
helping. You're not helping me up.

You're just making me feel guilty for
neglecting you &everyone else.

Like you said, the world doesnt revolve around me.
Neither does it revolve around you.

Lend a helping hand?

Cheng was being sweet, his mom talked to me.
She was pretty concerned about my moronic cramps.
Cause she said that her friend, who, like me,
never had killer cramps before, went for a check up
&found out she had STOMACH CANCER!

Oh my mama! I almost died &went to heaven!
So she suggested that if I have anymore killer cramps,
I must must must go for a check up.

Weird, but she asked me if I've suffered any blows
recently. &silly me, I thought she was refering to fights.
As in physical fights!
So I said NO!

&I was wondering why she'd even bother
tothink that such an innocent little thing like
me would actually bother getting into fights!
HAHAHAHAHAAAAHHH!

Im not AH LIAN!
-Looks at Samoo the Poo!

PANICKS!

Peace be with you.

2006-09-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

I wna fall in love with you
All over again, just with you.

Isabel the fart wrote it for me! :D! &yes, I see the emphasis on my braces!

Setia! :D The birthday girl from last week!
Jade looks like a MODEL! :D! for the Pepsi ad!
The birthday girl giving Aishah a kiss. [:
Belnice &Jade! :D!
FIONN, SETIA, IDAYU &MINGS!
Ariel, Abby &VanessaChew!
IdayuHoney &I.
Bel looked like Ms Ho that night!
Cutting the cake! Yummos!
&yes! This is my little piece of art for Fionn!

Since she always says that nobody makes her anything!

Goodbye Escalate!
Slab work &coiled pot!
Andre &his daughter, J. Andre says "I love you Jeremy"
Jeremy replies "I lubbzx you too Momma!"

HAHAHAHAHA!

Baby J fell asleep in the car ride home!
Andre, the proud Mother of a daughter named Jeremy!
Andre says "see the resemblance between mother &child?"
Did I mention? Jeremy the cat is a girl?

Maybe she'll grow up &cross dress like her mom, Andre!

&FRAN SHOOTS THAT DEVIOUS DARE!
I just couldnt climb that stupid spiderweb thing!
Cleaning the sand off my shorts!
Bel took the photos!

There was this HAM SUM boy walking past lah!

Ha! Bel! Dont try to scare me ogaaay!

ITS MINE! ITS MINE!

Checking out the bungalow rooms!

Peace be with you.

2006-09-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song,
for you and only you.

She smiled; the world never felt quite so depressing
when it was bright. She spent the afternoon with Andre,
chatting about anything and everything under
the big blue cloudy sky.

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now I am gone, just try and stop me now.

QUICKTARDED REPLIES:

Ayuthepu: Hello Pu! Thanks for taking time out to spend
time on the phone with me. Yeah yeah, its always
Abby-&-her-nuisance! But I'll always be there
to listen to your problems too alright?
Cheers. Love you.

Passerby: I have no idea who you are, &im sorry,
I dont reply tags who are made by anonymous-s.
So do leave your name. &thankyou for your concern though.

Idayu: Hello Honey! Im really happy for you &Kay.
You're the sweetest. :D!

Cheng: CHEE-ENG! Mr Karchng, thankyou for the
gentle reminders. I love you! Lets go jogging
someday, you can jog &i'll walk! SET?

Mings: ORH! You mati! Hahah, if Bel finds
out you called her "THAT BALL!"! You sure die!
Anyways, thanks dear! I love you Mings!

Farah: Hello Fatass, thanks for the email.

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YESTERDAY, as I mentioned in the earlier post,
was HORRID. I swear it was.

My eyes were swollen, &it looked disgusting!

Okay, I promised I'd be optimistic.
So fuck those angst thingys.

Met Fionn &Fran at Novena at 5.
We trained down to Pasir Ris.

Omgzxzx! I almost died &went to heaven please.
BUT!! Hhaha, thank God for all the disgusting people
of Singapore!

Honestly, we should thank them for the
FREE entertainment they provide us!

Yeah, it was hilarious!
There was this lady! In the train &we were
of course, minding our own business!

But she caught our eyes! She stood out from the crowd!
You guys must be wondering, stood out?
In what way?

WITH A TOOTHPICK &A MIRROR!

Yeah! Hahaha, right hand holding the toothpick
&picking into her teeth &the mirror to see
if she was picking the right holes with it!

HER FACIAL EXPRESSION! was so darn constipated!
It sent Fionn, Fran &I into fits of giggles!
Oh my gosh! Simply horrendous yet hilarious!

Being gan cheong spiders, we picked a fight
with those losers who were hogging up loads
of space at the interchange.

Selfish asswipes!

Fortunately they were afraid &moved forward!
Or I would have personally informed them that
their butts werent THAT big &didnt have to
occupy such a wide surface area.

TSK. Mofos!

Once we reached the bungalow, Bel was there! By the
huge gate with a huge grin on her face!
&I was there, panicking that Edwin would be
there, THANKS to TAN SHI MING! who made
me ... oh nevermind.

Thankfully he didnt come.
-phew.

We pigged out on the buffet! YUMMOS!
Fruitpunch tasted great ... somehow!

We headed for the rooms! Yeah cause Bel had
an overdose of alcohol! Thanks to Eunice!
Hahaha! To think that she thought it was Sprite

YAH LA! SILLYBEL! TRY TO ACT COOL LA!
What an idiot.

Fionn had to leave, so we walked her to the
bus stop! &headed to buy ice cream. Yummos! :D!

We walked to the beach!
The seabreeze certainly calmed the nerves!
I felt so relaxed. That feeling was so refreshing,
yet so temporary.

Headed for the playground!

Recollections of memories came flooding in once again.
Remember what you said during the June Hols?
That you'd teach me how to cycle?

&I laughed at that thought.

You said you'd make sure I wouldnt fall.

Took a slow walk back to the bungalow.
Stayed for awhile then Fran &i decided to leave.

On the way home, we met Korean tourists who had
some difficulties with their directions.

Being ahem, good Singapore citizens,
we took them from Pasir ris all the way to
CityHall &then to The Oriental.

Reached home at 11.30pm.
Showered &talked to him on the phone.

Content, I fell asleep.

-------------------------------------------------------
This morning, woke up looking at the time,
comtemplating whether I should attend church.

Got my lazy bum off the bed &hit the showers.
Used a cab &headed to Church.

Stood outside, staring at the church.
Wondering what went wrong.
Wondering why the people there suck so badly.

Ignore those thoughts &entered.
Stayed until worship ended.

Met Andre outside &headed to buy his breakfast.
Settled under some HDB flat &talked.

Sometimes, the truth hurts.
&most of the times, I just wna get down to the bottom
of it all.

This time, I hope Andre got his sources wrong.
Cause I got a feeling my heart is dying.
I dont know why, I feel weak, as if its failing.

Suffered too many hard blows?
Gee, I dont know.

We talked about studies, he helped me with
my social &gave me tips.

Then came along a stray cat.
We named it J.

&thats how we came up with the quote,
"Lose a boyfr, gain a cat"

However, in the end, we had to let the cat go.

See the significance?
I think its stupid.

Andre was its mother!
&boy, did they look good together!
HAHAHAHAH!

We cabbed down to my place,
&yeah! The cat was in his shoe bag!
&he was carrying it as if he was a proud
mother leaving the hospital with her
new born baby! :D:D!

Super funny!

Mama Amy was being really an noying.
So I ignored her. -_-"

We gave baby J., milk!
&wells, we expected it to be a boy,
thats why I named it J. but Andre checked
it out &it was a girl, so he forced me to change
its name but LALALA! I refused!

So its a girl with a boy's name!

We took it to my room, &it kept hiding at
the corner! -_-" &i was like "J! comeout!"
Hahahah! &that idiot gave J. my school belt
to play with!

Stupidfool!

Anyways, the fur was killing me.
My nose was running away!

So we brougt it down &left it there!
Poor baby J. )))))):

I'll miss you J.

Then headed off to meet Belnice!

In the bus, my heart ached.

Something so sweet yet so bitter.
I looked to my left, saw a couple,
holding hands &having a happy convo.

To avoid the gush of tears, I looked away,
only to look down into the car next to the bus,
where this married couple were holding hands.

omgxz! The lady, held the man's hand
&gave it a kiss. &the man, returned his gratitude
with a kiss as well.

My heart, it ached.

By then, tears were SO CLOSE to pouring.
But I was saved by the bell.

Alighted &went to find Bel.
We lunched at Magic Wok.

I was super confused.
Who to believe?
ARGH.

We headed to town, got some things!

&wells, Im home now.

Ayuthepu wants me to say this:

AYUTHEPU CAME TO MY RESCUE.
JENG JENG JENG!
AYUTHEPU WAS WEARING REDPANTIES
ONTHE OUTSIDE.
JENG JENG JENG.

You stupid Pu, are you satisfied?

Her photo was in your wallet.
How come you never kept ours?
you never got to forget he r right?
&i never did mean anything right?
was i just a substitude?
All these questions unanswered.

We'll wait &we'll see.
Did you or did you not.

I choose not to believe.

I dislike her, I detest her.
I dont like the fact you were once hers.

Im gna be Kenneth! &Im gna wait until
that day comes, that maybe you'd appreciate
something. That little something.

&right now, this song is going
out to you &to ayuthepu!

"One More Sad Song"

One boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
Time goes by, secrets rise
One more, sad song, tears shed, she's gone
She'd take it back, if she only could

And all the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone. You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed and you wish you could be

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I cannot breathe
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me.

Best friend, worst thing, she's been, cheating
Friend deceives, she leaves
Last date. She cries, whispers, goodbye
She walks once more, out that door

And all the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed and you wish you could be

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I cannot breathe
My heart is torn, for all to see

Alone with you, alone with me.
Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
Please stay, don't go away

The hardest thing is letting go of you
what can I do?
Alone with you, alone with me, what can I do?
I cannot see, alone with, alone with, alone with you,
alone with me, what can I do?

I cannot breathe, my heart is torn for all to see,
alone with you, alone with me

Peace be with you.

[/edit]

ANDRE &I. (OUR CONVO!)
(Look at his idiotic nickname!)

Lost a boyfriend gained a cat =) mummy + maid loves u alot jeremy... says:
oi
Lost a boyfriend gained a cat =) mummy + maid loves u alot jeremy... says:
wad happened
☆ abby; High&lifted up says:
what what happened?
Lost a boyfriend gained a cat =) mummy + maid loves u alot jeremy... says:
...to jeremy
Lost a boyfriend gained a cat =) mummy + maid loves u alot jeremy... says:
ran away?
☆ abby; High&lifted up says:
Im not sure
☆ abby; High&lifted up says:
when i came back she wasnt there
Lost a boyfriend gained a cat =) mummy + maid loves u alot jeremy... says:
T_T

HAHAHAHA! Mummy is actually Andre.
&Im the maid? Wth right?

2006-09-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play.

She awoke with her head pounding. Her mouth as
dry as Gandhi's sandal and her vision was impaired.
She leaned up one elbow and tried to open her eyes,
which were somehow glued together. She squinted
around. It was bright, very bright, and the room
seemed to be spinning. Something very odd
was going on.

When you walk don't leave a note
Just put your hands on the back door
When you talk it's just a joke
Just know, I can't take it anymore

Summary of yesterday in one word:
HORRID.

Cheng asked what keeps me going?
My answer: FRIENDS.

I admit, I may not be blessed in the relationship
section but Im most certainly blessed with
a tonne of awesome fun-loving friends!

Had a pretty interesting day, shall share it
with you guys later on?

For now, here's something Andre &I came up with.
"Lose a boyfr, gain a cat!"

Go figure!

&WE realized, whoever who's name is ____,
isnt meant for me. ): Gee, maybe you
should change your name.

TATA-

2006-09-02T11:57:00.000+08:00

Before we turn out the lights &close our eyes.
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life.

She seemed to be living outside of her body,
numb to everything but the pain in her heart,
in her bones, in her head. She was just so tired.

You're - you're my number one
I'd do anything for you
Catch the rain from the sky,
even hold back the tide for you
Baby baby, you're - you're my number one
With you I know I belong
I put the radio on and it's always playing our song

Someone please share some joy with me.

Defination of the word JOY.
The emotion of great delight or happiness caused
by something exceptionally good or satisfying; keen pleasure; elation

When was the last time I slept in peace?
I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE OKAY.
I HATE IT.

ABIGAIL WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM.
WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM.

Please. Im tired.
Im tired of suicide giving me friendly winks.
Im tired of slamming doors.
Im tired of throwing things around.
Im just tired.

Peace be with you.

2006-09-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

There's an angel standing next to me.
Reaching for my heart.

Werent you like this before?

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

Whatever happened to that sweet yakult addict?
I hope he doesnt just live down memory lane.
I hope he shifts down to present &future avenue.

A traitor in our midst.
Or should I say, TWO traitors in MY midst.

Both of them once meant alot to me.
Now? Please stay FAR FAR away from me, I NEVER EVER
wna talk to you two ever again.

Traitor #1.
So much for being my 4years darling.
Thanks for telling on me ah,
I totally appreciated it. Not.
Remind me again, never ever to trust you.

Traitor #2.
Some bastard, who didnt spare a thought for me.
Some bastard, who talked my boyfr into thinking
that he was doing the right thing, breaking up with me.
Some bastard, who then ran off with some rgs tingtong.
Some bastard, who broke my pu's heart.
Some bastard, whom I never ever wna see ever again.
Some bastard, whom I actually was foolish enough
to call him a bestfriend.

That bastard, keep your distance from me.

Oh yeah, come to think about it.
Freaky ain't it?

Two close friends, frontstabbing me yeah?
They didnt even bother doing it behind my back,
they literally stabbed me where my heart was
meant to be.

Thankyou, you guys, I totally appreciated it. not.
Especially Traitor #2, thanks for ruining
two almost perfect lives for your own selfish desires.

Fuck you.

Nahnahnah! Now, thats just about a fraction
of my problems, you guys havent heard it all just yet.

I can't sleep, how could I?
Each time Im about to doze off,
another problem would come knocking
on the door. ):

Shoo problems, Im sick of you, please go away.
Go find someone else, I cant entertain you.
Won't you just return me what you took away
&just leave? Please? I beg you?

Im tired &on the verge of breaking down.

I just cant continue pretending Im fine.
Being cheerful &happy when infact, deep
down, everything seems wrong.

&i ask God why.

Why did you take that boy away from me?
Why God why?

No, I dont want anything better,
I want that boy. I only want that boy.
So much to the extend that I think Im going crazy.

If I ever end up in IMH,
thankyou for driving me to that corner.

My heart feels like its been stomped on,
it feels weak, it feels as if something is piercing through it.

Why do I feel this way?

Why Abby why?

There we go again,
pretending that everything is okay.
Running away &avoiding the topic,
hoping that it would never resurface again.

But you &i both know, we have to face it someday, somehow.
So why run? Aren't you tired? I know I am.
10000000000000000times more tired
than compared to you.

I wish you'd live just one day in my life,
experiencing how I feel each day.

Do you really think its by choice?

Why did it just have to benefit you?
Have you considered how I would feel?
Knowing how emotional I am,
knowing how I cant handle hard blows
especially not on my own.

Then why did you choose to do it?
You chose to believe that Im a strong person.
You chose to believe that Im a cheap slut.

Why does everything has to be one sided?
&worst! because of a book.

Burn that book.

Search the bibles written in different languages,
may it be NIV or whatbullshitever! Search it &tell
me, when &where did God clearly states that
a realtionship isnt meant for our age?

Nah-ur, it isnt in the ten commandments?
So oh where oh where couldnt it be?

Oh yes, I know, it must be up that whoever-
who-led chapels' ass! &oh maybe you'd be able
to find it up that authors's butthole as well. -_-"

Plainly cause, they made it up.
They led a deprived teenage life &they want
you people to be stupid enough to believe it,
they just God's name in vain to dupe you all into
actually believing in such pure natural
bullshit.

Look, that bastard (traitor #1) claimed you were
doing the right thing, look what he's doing now?
He got himself an rgs girlfriend.

Did he really care about you the way you thought he did?
HAHAHAHAHA! What a joke.

Im bitchy, so? sue me lah!
Its true, look what he's doing &compare it
with what he told you.

If you're on the right track, you'd realize how
silly &immatured you were, listening
to deprived pastors &friends who supposedly
claimed they care, but actually couldnt care less.

Sometimes, you should spare a thought for others.
Maybe for a start &for a change, ME.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Kenneth never stopped loving Rach.
Though, Rach took a pretty long time
to realize it, in the end, they still patched
&are pretty happy together.

What about us?

3 came my way, 3 all rejected.
I still choose you.

Even if 10 were to come my way, 10 would all be reject.
I would still choose you.

Like it or not.
Make me or break me, happens to be in your hands.

Like it or not.
Following your heart or listening to deprived pastors,
happens to be your decision.

Whether you like it or not,
Im still here, waiting.

Waiting for you to tell me "I love you".
Waiting for you to tell me "Everything is gna be alright"
Waiting for you to ask me "Do you still love me?"

Just simple waiting.
Without hatred.

I was never able to hate you.
All I could do was blame myself.
Im sick &tired of this life.
I dont ever wna wake up ever again.

Just let me rest. Etneral rest.
Just want you to think about it carefully.
Its me or its the deprived pastors/authors whom apparently
dug their sermons/novels out from their asshole. -nodds.

May I be kind enough to suggest a better pastor &author?
How about Pastor Bob, Im sure he gets his sermon
from the Bible! Oh yes! &how about Meg Cabot
or Cecelia Ahern, they certainly write nice books.
You can also try Nicholas Sparks, well, beats reading
crap ass books from deprived authors.

Rick Warren sounds like a preferred choice too.

The choice.
Me or deprived authors/pastors.

GEE? Tough decision?

Choose deprived authors/pastors &i swear i'll
never ever ever ever, not now, not in three years
time, not even in 1000years time appear
infront of you ever.

I wont avoiding you.
Just be sure to attend my funeral &snap
a photo of how I look like in coffen &ah yes!

Ive also selected the neoprint I wna have enlarged
for the photo that is to be placed infront
of my coffin yeah! Fine choice of neoprint!

Id like sunflowers as the main flower item,
no ju hua please. Its smelly &it would stink up the place.

&yeah, could you please, before I depart from this
shit hole place, tell me you love me. I'd like to take
along all the sweet sweet memories we spent together.
&just leave all the bitter ones behind, yeah like
how you chose fucked up pastors/authors to me. -_-"

Yeah yeah, get the picture?
&please notify me, the choice that you made
before hand, so I wouldnt have to rush to get
my will done. &also my hair, before I get
comfy in the coffin, oh of course, i'd love to make
an awesome last impression.

&please invite my juniors, seniors, aqquantances (spellcheck?),
uhhhhh &please dont even think of asking
those two traitors mentioned in the above ah!

I'll be back to haunt them.
Hehs! Pulling his girlfr's hair off sounds fun.
3cheers for sweet revenge ayee?

&yes, back to my invitation list,
please invite all my online friends over
to come join in the fun, i'd like my
funeral to be a joyous occasion, oh oh
please ask the Grace Haven kids along,
i'd love to see Weijun &Gary playing catching
at my funeral.

&As for music, i'd like uhhh most of the songs
Ive mentioned &put up on my blog!
Ah yes! Air Supply would be good! :D!

As for my clothes, id like to wear my
punkstar shirt &my new blackshorts.

Thankyou.
Hope you make the right choice!

Not to worry, you'll inherit all my underwears. -_-"
Break another promise &i'll break your neck.

Here's to you.

"More Than Words"

Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy, it would be to show me how you feel,

More than words,
is all you have to do, to make it real,
Then you wouldn't have to say, that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,

What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,
Just by saying I love you,

It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,

Now that I've tried to,
talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do, is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands, and touch me,

Hold me close don't ever let me go,
More than words, is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say, that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say, if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,(no no)
Just by saying I love you

Peace be with you.

2006-09-01T17:03:00.000+08:00

PS. I LOVE YOU!

He's gone and he would never come back.
That was the reality, she would never again run
her fingers through his soft hair, never laugh with
him so much her stomach would ache.

All that was left was a bundle of memories, and an
image of his face that became more &more vague each day.

Their plan had been very simple: to stay together for
the rest of their lives. A plan that everyone within their
circle would agree was accomplishable.
They were bestfriends, lovers and soulmates,
destined to be together, everyone thought. But as
it happened, one day destiny greedily changed its mind.

Most of all she loved that when she hugged him her head
would be rest neatly just below his chin, where she could
feel his breath lightly blowing her hair and tickling her head.

PS. I love you.

You're telling me that the book says it all?
&giving up on me, just cause the book says so?

How could you even compare me to the
writings of that book?

The Author = Spawn of devil.

Yeah, so maybe I realized yesterday, Im not a Christian.
My fault? No no, I highly doubt it is.
Blame life for being too unfair to me.
Blame life. Not me.

Its not that I dont love God.
No no, please dont get me wrong.
I do, infact I really do.

Its just that I dont understand the way he works.
It always bites me back in the ass.
Why is it so? I dont know. Dont ask me.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Sorry to all whom sent smses after 11pm last night.
I knocked out right after My Lovely Samsoon ended.
Oh yes, WHO HAS THAT DVD AHHHH?

I wna wna wna wna wna borrow.
SillyMings has got me addicted to it. :D!

Met Mings this morning!
While waiting, I donated THREE times
to those people who were doing that Yellowribbon
flag day thingggy at TPY. :D!

I had breakfast at Macs! Mingsypoo didnt eat. ):
wahh, made me feel like a fatcow lorh!

Head to school, finally complete my Escalate proj.
&it doesnt look all that bad! :D:D!
Wanted to take home my slabwork &coilpot
but Miss Low wants it for the exhibition.

DIE! SIAO LIAO!
It looks like poop! )))):
Snapped photos of it today but but but ....
Im so not gna post it up!

However! I shall be a kind soul,
if you're kpo enough! Drop me an email
or nudge me on msn &i'll send you the photos! :D!

&those who wants the class photo taken with
Mr Jiow &Ms Syde!, you can either get the
photo from me or Nicole Nithiya!

But I suggest getting it from NicoleN. cause mine
is a little shaked unless you dont mind
have double visions of your face la! :D:D!

Anyways the 5hardworking souls that came back
to school to complete the Escalate proj:
Seiriol, Franky! (Fran), Mings, Setia &I! :D!

Oh MISS LOW SHOULD GIVE US
CREDIT OF HARDWORKINGNESS! [:

&the rest, prepare to flunk ah!
(kiddung!)

ANYWAYS! MISS LOW IS OPENING
THE ART STUDIO ON MONDAY &TUES!
So do pop by if you wna pass cause uhhh incase
you fools dont know, this project must be handed
in when school reopens!

So, me, being a kind soul shall let you
in on the details! (say thankyou!)

Art studio, second storey.
Monday &tuesday.
8am - 5pm

I THINK... hahah!

Suggest you come early! Cause Miss Ho
MIGHT lock the door! thanks to those
people who kept pestering her to lend
them paint for some drama workshop thing!

Was suppose to lunch with Aunty Amy,
Melvin, Clement, Aunty Linda &Jamie
&all those yadda yadda! But declined
the offer cause I was rushing along with
my art porj!

My hunk, ClementFang! asked me to
go shopping with him!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Sorry dearest cousin of mine!

Another day perhaps! [:

Afterwhich, while we were heading back to
the interchange, I spotted a disgusting
gruesome sight!

There was this little boy!
HE WAS PICKING HIS NOSE &WORST!
EAT HIS OWN NOSE SHIT! -_-"

-piaks my head!

damn, his mother doesnt feed him enough!

Mings was like "omgzxzx! omgzzx!"
&Bel was "eeeeyurrr abigail!!"

&i was ............. stoned!

Mings headed home!

Bel &i went to town.
Saw Minghui there! HAHAHAH!

Lunched at Yoshi. yumyu!
Then headed to Artfriend to find
-drumrolls

UNCLE PETER WEE!

Hahahah, he's the cutest in Artfriend!
Love him to bits! :D!

Headed to the library &then went
to buy my book. :D!

Yeahh, finally got it. Im a happy cow!

Then he called. I smiled. A genuine smile.

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

While walking home from that path which leads from
TTSH to my apartment. Vague memories came
gently to my mind, it was almost as if it blew with the gentle
early evening breeze.

It felt comfortable, too comfortable.
Almost as if it was meant for me,
as if the breeze was telling me not to forget,
how blessed I was.

It felt strange. A little too strange.

All the memories, including little details.
Its all stored in my mind.
Never gna be forgotten.

Considering whether to go church or not.
Sorry Leonard, maybe not.

"Big Apple Heartbreak"

This can't be home anymore
This can't be home anymore
if you think i have not been missing the way he breathes
you are mistaken my friend I've fallen down
So put your mouth on my bloody knees

One night with me and I've broken your trust
I hate to be the bond you know is gonna bust
Hurting lungs from breathing sighs of disgust
This can't be home anymore
This can't be home anymore

Now cold concrete blank walls are
Staring into your lonely eyes
I duck behind them and hope that you won't go
And ask for answers to why I made you cry
I never wanted us to fade out
Resting on a love that fell apart
Where are you, I need you
You still have my heart
Still have my heart

I never wanted us to fade out (fade out)
Resting on a love that fell apart (torn apart)
Where are you, I need you
You still have my heart
Still have my heart

Peace be with you.

addtional info:
OMGZXZX!
Kenneth Tan (kenizawa) &Rach patched.
OMGZXZX! So sweeet.

here's his link!
http://www.kenizawa-.blogspot.com/
&refer to post made on 27thAug!

Oh POOPSY, Im jealous.

Told you life was unfair to me.
But nooo, you chose not to listen.

2006-08-31T15:33:00.000+08:00

Mr Jiow in the SJI uniform! :D!

Miss Syde's last day. ):
Knives are my new found bestfriends.

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Broke down during the song dedications.
I couldnt take it anymore, i just had
so much to say to you. &the songs seemed
to be doing the job for me.

Two songs.
Faith hill - There you'll be.
& Westlife - My love.

"My love"

An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)
And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

I try to read, I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)

I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)
And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take its there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.
Say it in a prayer (my sweet love)
Dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue (woah yeah),
to see you once again my love. (oh my love)

All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again.... My Love.

I'd like to take my pu, Ayunni.
&also the wonderfulest bimbo Sonia.
for cheering me up when i oh so suddenly
broke down.

Met Samuel after school!
Samuel the Poo! :D! Oh oh! Ive got a new
name for him! SAMOO! Nice right?

But I prefer poo! So lets just stick with poo!

SAMUEL IS POO.
AYUNNI IS PU.
BEN IS AH POO! :D:D!

Oh the Ben Im refering to is not Benedict (solution)!
So please dont get mixed up!
OR THERE'D BE A CHEMICAL REACTION!

(okay, abby .. not funny)

Poo &i went to PS.
That boring poop place, just to eat his crispy chicken.

-PIAKS MY HEAD!

Then we walked around!

HEY SAMUEL! Im sorrrrry for being so
quiet &all that shit! I was in a horrendous mood!
So anyways, we decided to leave,
he was gna meet his friends &i was gna meet
MOTHERLY DELS! :D:D!

Poo is adorable!
I kept smiling to myself cause Dels kept
making me laugh about something, &he
said I was weird. -_-"

&the next thing you know!
He's the one smiling to himself!
What were you thinking of ah!
You're such a poo! :D

Oh my mother!
I saw (ahem!) . Code name: K
Havent seen him quite awhile!
&next to him was Code name: Z,
whom I havent actually met.

But yeah whatever!

Waited at the cab stand for Dels, Jiayi &Bella!
Then we headed to SCGS.

Gosh! Whats with Ms Heng &her blubber?
Her blubber is so out of place? Under her chin?

-piaks head!

Anyways, she said that Dels &Bella were
to stay in the canteen! &yadda yadda!
&claims that she only recognises her girls!

Which in this case are Jiayi &i.

POOPS!

We left, used a cabby! Jiayi dropped Motherly Dels &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;i
off at Newton Mrt! &from there, we made our way
to Tpy! Then to Ec! Niggalette &all where there!

THE NIGGAS UNITE!

Anyhow, we landed up at fork &spoon.
Then I left.

Seeing how everythi g there happened,
made me realize, how much i missed
the past.

Niggalette walked me back to the interchange.
Hhahaha! I was afraid i might bump into
some unforeseen circumstances code name:K &Z!

Oh my gosh! The OM, Mr Tan! Scared the poop out
of me please!Iwas walking with Niggalette &he stuck
out his hand right infront of my face!

Talked tohim for awhile! Then left.

The ride home was fine.

Alot has happened ever since i set
foot into the house, just wna thank Ben! Ahpoo!
for calling me up &Mings dearest!

Anyways, those who are going back to school
for art tomorrow, do ring me up or leave
a message.

Thankyou. &Just wna apologise for being
so vulgar, while blogging or in speech.
Im just a little rough round the edges.

Thanks for putting up with my nonsense!
To everyone!

Gna upload photos now!
Then I'll post it up!

Tata-

PS. finally heard your voice again, you dont know how happy I was.

2006-08-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

FUCK.

I dont wna fucking live.
I dont wna fucking go through all these pains.
I just wna fucking be with you again.

JUST FUCKING KILL THE FUCK OUT OF ME.

2006-08-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

&oh yes.

remember you told me once
that if ever I missed you, all I had
to do was hug my bolster &think of you?

That is what Ive been doing! &if possible,
Im gna buy a small bolster to bring to school
&hug it all day long. Cause you're never off
my mind.

Now, imagine how tiring that is?
Thinking of you til it hurts.

2006-08-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

It's an uphill human race,and I am falling down

IM MISSING NDP PRACS! )))))):
Oh Poo. ):

ANYWAYS, today's song theme: AVRIL LAVIGNE! :D:D!

Ogay, so I didnt have such an awesome day.

Got shot multiple times by dearest Pearlynlau &Vic Chew!
by their really really colourful water guns!
Such poopheads! But I love them anyhow!

SEE! Being my junior rocks!
You get to bully me &I never ever complain!

Im a nice small senior! :D:D!

Mr Fernandez was in a rather horrible mood!
He was shouting &yadda yadda!

Started on my Escalate Project during art.
Looks like poop laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
I have no mood whatsoever for it!

SAT OUT FOR PE!
Thanks to my horrible flu+sorethroat+headache.
But sitting out was funnn with Fionn!

We kept laughing at Minghui!
Hhahaha! &she scolded me)))):

Abby: Minghui! dont frown!
Minghui: -shoots me an act cute face.
Abby: -faints!

Anyways, practiced the dance for the assessment!
PANIC! So malu please.

-Buries head in the toilet bowl!!

"My girl Lollipop
You make my heart go giddy-up
You taste as sweet as candy
You're my sugar dandy.OOOHHHH-OH

My girl Lollipop
Never, never leave me
Or you know it would grieve me
My heart told me so.OOOOHHH

I love you I love you I love you so
But I don't want you to know
I need you I need you I need you so
and I'll ne'er let you go

My girl Lollipop
You make my heart go giddy-up
You set the world afire
You are my one desire
Oh my heart told me so!"

THAT SONG! HAS BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD
SINCE PE LESSON! I think we heard it about
1000000000000000 times in two periods!

-bangs head against the wall!

HEE! I feel like watching Miss Swan! :D:D!

TOMORROW IS TEACHERS' DAY!
Too bad! Im not getting anything for anyone!
I intended to get for Mr Limlim! Mr BERNARD CHAN! (:D:D!)
&also Mr Fernandez!

I thought a sunflower would definately suit them!
Esp Mr Limlim! Cause he already looks like a
sunflower himself! :D!
But hardy ha ha! I spent like half my allowance on
sunday itself!

HELL YEAH!
I bought Jerrold &myself a cup of Fudge Brownie each!
&I bought the materials for that dipshit screwed
up english project!

Oh mmhm, not gna get anything!

RECEIVED INVITES!
Oh goody goo!
Its gna be blast!

Anyways, Im tired.

Tired of everything!
Tired of being the eldest in the family
&most of all, tired of trying to please
everyone on the surface of the earth.

*You're included too, cant you see?
Im trying to please you too? Im so fucking exhausted.

Why cant everything be like before?
I could count on you when I was upset or happy.

Now? I cant even tell you what made me upset or
happy. Why are you doing this to me?
Helping me? Or just simply driving me to that
corner again?

WELL, anyways.
The good thing that made me happy was:

Mr Jiow commented on my improving grades.

LIKE WHEN THE FUCK HAS HE EVER
COMPLIMENTED ME? LIKE NEVER EVER!

I've told my friends, yeah, they seem happy
for me, but its different. They dont react
the way you do, you would have encouraged
me to do better &tell me that I can do it.

But now? I feel like giving up.
To see a good grade on my paper doesnt
make me feel happy anymore.

Bad news:
I had an arguement with my Mom.

If you were there, you'd tell me, its okay,
that I still have you &that you still love me
&all those things.

(like you did, when i got scolded
on our first month, remember what you told
celeste on the phone?)

BUT ARE YOU HERE NOW?
Answer is, you're not.

You're never around.
You went away.

&you claim its for my own good?
But is it? Have you actually sat down &thought about it?
Its just driving me back into that old dusty corner.
If thats what you want, back into that
corner where I came from before, then
so be it.

But dont blame me for breaking my promise.
Despite you breaking all your promises,
I still held on to the one I made, which is,
not to inflict pain onto myself.

Dont blame me for breaking it.

Im still staying up, for that phone call.
IMH, my home to be.

Here's to you.

"Fall To Pieces"

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

SUMMARY:
If I had my way, you need not have to leave.
Everynight during quite time, I'd tell God about you,
praying that one fine day we'd just make it through
it all. Its too late to say that I dont wna fall to pieces,
cause I have already fallen.

&You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Cross my heart &hope to die. SUMPAH!